You

Just a ranting journal entry form long ago.

What did you do to me? I am so lost. How could you? You’ve ruined me, tore me apart. I asked you for mercy. I got none. No you’re off with her, forgetting me. You know, I hope you’re happy. I hope she gives you everything, just like I did. She won’t though. She only has one thing to give to you, then she’s done with you. Too bad you only realize it now. Too late for your apologies. Too late for your tears. You had your chance, now it’s gone. I gave you my all. I gave up everything. For what? For you to tear me apart inside. I hate you, ya know? No. I love you, but that’s the worst part. I love without being loved. Your memories haunt me every day. I never stop thinking about you. My thoughts are my enemy. My heart is no longer whole. It longs to feel something. It’s your fault. It’s all your fault. I guess I wasn’t good enough for you. Don’t come crying to me when you suddenly realize what you’ve lost. Don’t you dare. I won’t take you back. I won’t be there for you. What will I feel? Sorry for you. Sorry that you don’t know what you lost until now. Sorry that you can’t have the best thing that will ever happen to you. Don’t worry though. You’ll find somebody new. Except you’ll always compare her to me. Compare her looks, compare her personality. Compare her to what I have done for you, what I have pushed you to do, how I made you feel.

Reviews

[Zephyr]

So many feelings expressed here.
Keep writing:)

[N.]

It is a very heartbreaking piece which unfortunately is all too common of giving to much and not getting much in return. I hope the prograganist in this piece understands that it is not healthy to give everything and not have nothing left for him or herself. N.

[Natasha]

She knows that now, Thanks :)

[Psychotic Lily]

I am not someone who has experienced being dumped by a lover. NBSB (No Boyfriend Since Birth) XD. But this poem is very moving. I feel the character loved him very much but the weight of how they love isn't equal so goes off and leaves the girl. Then he realizes that he just gave up the one person who loved him to bits. It's just right for the girl not to take him back.

[Natasha]

Thank you much :) You described it pretty well

[Jobira]

What? This reminds of a poem I am currently writing called, " How did I miss the signs."

We are still in pain, yet love and need someone.

[Natasha]

Very true indeed

[Jobira]

Yes, indeed. Lol at this time

[barleygirl]

I remember when I was younger, I would truly enjoy writing something like this, where I told off another person who had hurt or disappointed me. It felt like I was slapping the other person across the face with each cleverly-composed line -- and that's kinda how your piece feels, too. I guess this would be the way "they" always advise us to write a mean-spirited letter & then rip it up.

Nowadays, I don't believe in blaming another person for whatever the two of us shared. It's always a two-way street in life & love. So, I'm not crazy about a rant like this, but I understand where it comes from. As we mature, we can write things that show the many layers of a relationship. Showing contrasts of feeling are some of my favorite things about reading & writing. When we write a rant like this, there's usually unexpressed love in there, too, which is where the hurt is coming from. Just some thoughts about your thoughts from long ago . . . *smile* (((HUGS)))

[Natasha]

I agree and I wrote this in the heat of the moment right after a major break up a couple years ago. But thank you much

[Raven Moonchild]

So strong and so relateable. This song makes me think of "You Oughta Know" from Alanis Morissette and "Someone Like You" from Adele. :)

[Natasha]

Thanks and very true!

[Xander]

I can feel the emotion behind every word very powerful.

[Natasha]

Thanks I appreciate it :)

[Farhan Shaikh]

I love the emotions in this..a very good one, thanx for sharing

[Natasha]

Thanks for reviewing!

[pia]

Nicely written natasha !!
Loved the emotions

[Natasha]

Thanks a lot :)

[Coyote Poetry]

Powerful words and thoughts. You made the reader feel the emotions and I liked the honest tone and the ending. The story had a realistic feel and the ending. Real life feel. Thank you Natasha for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[Natasha]

Thank you much!

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome Natasha.