To: The One Who Doubts

Warning!! Made out of anger and distress

But please...

Don't burden yourself with the guilt that I know you will have once you find what I say is no lie,

Don't think about all of the pain you have caused and how you've made me want to just die,

Don't know how I feel or how this is real you don't understand all the pain,

Why can't you see what you're doing to me that I have nothing that is to gain,

I don't understand how you think I pretend after all I have tried to tell you,

I just can't comprehend how you think that I bend everything that is so very true,

And now that I've said and now that you've read this I hope that you now understand,

Or you can ignore this like difficult chores and kill me when all this does end,

But I know in my mind some day you will find how my pain is defined as real and not a pretend,

How can you blow everything that you know I have told you off just like it is untrue,

I guess you don't have to pick up the broken pieces of my soul so why would you care,

Maybe you don't see how you break me and leave me in the cold,

Or you don't mind the way I fight the memories that push and make me fall to the dark,

While you just stand there and watch me writhe in pain,

 of the flashbacks and fears I all but retain,

 from the knowlage of others so they cannot see, 

but I need to remember that this isn't about me.

Is it?

Author's Note

Not done yet. I will continue to add to it as time goes on, maybe make a song out of it I don't know.

Reviews

[The Exiled Wolf]

The contrasting feeling of trust and betrayal hurts a lot more than pure abuse. It is an irony when people say that "you can trust me" or "don't worry, honey, i'll trust you", they either don't mean it or they take the words lightly. The pity and disbelief in their eyes are like splashing acid on an open wound. The emotions in this piece are so intense that they stir up my memories!

[Taz]

Thank you.

[LKBillips]

My only critique is the font you chose if very hard to ready. Perhaps if it was bit bigger. I like how this one is just pure emotion, letting it flow.

[Taz]

Valid review although I like the fact it's hard to read as it matches the vibe for as an adult now I go back and read this, and the words are hard to read themselves, hard to see how hurt I was, a good reminder though not to trust the particular person this is about.

[Broken Hearts]

You managed to stir up some of my own memories with the intensity of the emotions. Can't wait to read when it's finished!

[Poetic License]

Keep writing, let it flow as it will. Express your heart and relieve it of its burden.

[Taz]

I will. Thanks for reading it.

[Silver]

I think that fr a victim , any victim is painful when they believe she lied , they will ignore the pain , try to convince that its all in your imagination , that would hurt more than the abuse itself , its like someone killing you on the second time

[Taz]

That is so true, you hit it spot on.

[Sammie Sanchez]

beautifully written. your point is presented forcefully so that we, the readers, understand your are p***ed off. i like it

[Taz]

Thank you.

[Cyprian Van Dyke]

Strong write. Lots of great lines. Enjoyed the read.

"I guess you don't have to pick up the broken pieces of my soul so why would you care," one of my favorite lines.

[Taz]

Thank you, that is a good line.

[Surya]

It was truly an anger tone from your heart, but you arrived to an end not a perfect one though....You kept your emotion flowing in every word of every line that's where it hit me...:)

[Taz]

oh no, it is not done plus I tied to wite this one free hand but it ended up rhyming

[Taz]

*tried *write

[Surya]

Then I will wait for rnd..

[Hebe]

Heartbreaking ... so sorry you had to go through this. Hopefully there was a useful lesson or wisdom you derived from this sad experience ...take the good, leave the bad! That's how I survived! thank you for sharing.

[Taz]

This poem I made for someone who didn't believe me about something very important.

[Hebe]

Yes... I could feel your frustration through the words.

[Taz]

Thank you.

[Najam Us Saher]

All the disturbing feelings are trapped in this poem which shows your state of mind and how miserable you are. Really expressed your feelings well.

[Taz]

Thank you very much.

[Najam Us Saher]

You're welcome. ☺