Waiting In Frozen Time

The test came back positive,

I can't believe it.

Should I believe it?

Could it be even possible?

Me? I couldn't even think that.

Why me? I don't think I'm ready for you yet.

How could I possibly take care of you?

Why can't he be here,

With us? With me?

I'm scared, I don't know what to do.

Do I carry you?

Or do I get rid of you?

I am lost in this world and the next.

Someone help me please.

I don't know where to go.