The Suicide Chronicles

The Suicide Chronicles

I’ll be added to a list.

Just another statistic.

Those who could not wait,

Those who lacked resilience .

 

First I’ll dig a shallow pit,

To keep my hazard confined.

Then douse myself head to toe,

In something flammable and pungent.

As if to rinse off shame.

 

It will then be so easy.

I’ll clench the lighter

In my fist,

As if it were my freedom.

Now it’s really simple

Yet a bit too hard.

I’ll flick my thumb violently,

Like that final leap of desperation.

 

And a volley of sparks

Like burning fairies,

Ignite against my skin.

And the fire will embrace me,

Like real genuine love.

 

But life,

The coward she is,

Will run from the flames.

And now alone in my fire pit,

About to burn to dust,

Death will come beside me,

And greet me with her smile.

She’ll kneel next to me in the pit ,

I know she’ll smell like rosebuds .

She’ll hold my flaming hand,

And caress my flaming face,

Like elegant orchids, soft.

 

And when we kiss,

My breath will leave,

Drawn out by her grace.

And I will fade

With all my pain.

 

The pain and I,

Will amount to nothing

  In this world

Just like yesterday. 

 

Reviews

[Blue Belle]

This is so good! The imagery is powerful and it has great emotion. Take Care! Stay Strong! :)

[Deron Alexis]

Thanks for the review and the well wishes I will try

[Dream Weaver]

This has to be one of the best and saddest
suicidal poem I've ever read. Gritty, truthful
melancholic and well penned!

[Deron Alexis]

thanx for reading i appreciate the comments

[The Dreamer]

The first and the last stanzas touched me - 'cause it is really true. i loved the metaphors and personifications you used for fire, life and death. the way you managed to picture life like something we couldnt rely on:
But life,
The coward she is,
Will run from the flames.
and death like a 'heroine' was brilliant.
And when we kiss,
My breath will leave,
Drawn out by her grace.
those lines were beautiful - its exactly the thoughts of someone craving for death. awesome read. well done.

[Deron Alexis]

Thanks i'm glad you liked it I really appreciate the read

[Fiona Nadine]

The last two stanzas are beautiful. I love how you describe the flames. well done

[Deron Alexis]

thanks for reading really and thaks for the review Fiona

[Fiona Nadine]

you're welcome

[Blackened Soul]

Well, first off I definitely liked that you choose a horrible and painful yet slightly badass way to commit suicide for this poem. Talk about going out in a blaze of glory. The imagery here is just awesome. The beauty and allure of death, the last second conflict right before the deed is done, and the flames were my favorite lines.

[Deron Alexis]

thanx dude I appreciate the comments

[Blackened Soul]

Your welcome man enjoyed reading it.