I Wonder

Sometimes I wonder if anyone really likes me... Or if they just use me and my sorrow as a source of entertainment....
Do they care? Or do they laugh at my pain when I turn away?...
Is it possible that I am as worthless as they say I am?...
That I am nothing? A mistake? A disgrace to anyone and everything?...
Do I disgust whoever I meet? Am I unworthy of love? Am I fated to live a life where I am a nuance to the world?....
Is my life some sort of sick joke?...
I just want to stop the pain....