Walking Alone

I'm the victim of a partner with Sex Addiction. Love your comments, thanks for the support

“You just don’t get it,”

You didn’t just ruin your life,

"we’re a team,"

"trust me, just let those walls down,"

You took them all away-

the decisions you made affected me,

"we’re my soul mates."

But now, I have to trudge along

through all this emotional s**t

alone, on a broken, yellow-brick road

away from the life we dreamed.

It’s never going to happen, with You,

and I’m okay with that.

 

The drama, the deception, the lying, the conniving…

 

The love you attached in my heart metastasized into a cancer that

has ripped a huge hole-

bleeding and aching to close.

As much as I want to spread You

across my wound like Spackle,

It can’t be patch,

With You,

Eventually, it will break off in little pieces,

sticking itself in other girls open wounds,

and once again,

I will end up with nothing.

I have to darn this chasm myself-

with ransom notes for Clarity & Spirituality,

such as the one you’re reading.

 

Thank You.

Author's Note

Purely for cathartic purposes.

Reviews

[Frieda P]

Very sad indeed, good purge here, some people don't believe there's such a thing as 'sex addiction', if you talk to an addict you know it to be true, a very good friend of mine goes to meeting's and such. He lost a lot but says he can't control his urges, something screwed up in their body's chemistry balance....of course there are those that use it as just an excuse....good rant.

[Kait]

It's a very real thing. He basically said, with his actions, that he would rather kill himself than get help, which he ultimately failed to do, unfortunately for him, because he's lost everything that matters most to him...including me. It's a terrible disease and he really couldn't control it. His demons were bigger than him.

[Kait]

Thank you for sharing and commenting :)

[Frieda P]

You're very welcome, and I feel for you...any and all addictions are damaging.

[Rita L. Sev]

Addiction of any kind is destructive... A good catharsis here, Kait.