Why

I ruin everything

I don't know why

I don't know how

I feel I'm about to cry

I've ruined friendships

I've broken hearts

It seems as if

I am falling apart

Why do I do this?

Run from my fear

Put up my walls

Not letting any near

I swear he hates me

He doesn't care

He forgot I was his friend

Never again, he wouldn't dare

Why do I do this?

Run from my fear

Put up my walls

Not letting anyone near

I hate me 

She hates me

Everyone does

If only they were able to see

I've turned invisible

I have been lost

I wish they could see me, hear me

But they can't, no matter the cost

Why do i ruin

Everything precious in my life

I don't know, but who does

Oh, time to grab that knife

I'll sit there and think

"I'll do it, I will" 

I put down the knife

And there goes the chill

I hold up my wrist

As blood pours out

I did it, it hurts

But who cares now?

Someday I'll do it

You know? Cut my wrist

Until then I wait

And punch walls with my fist

Why do I do this? 

Run from my fear

Put up my walls

Not letting anyone near

Soon I'll be gone

No where in sight

Soon I'll be gone

Turns out, I lost this fight