Steps to getting better

Steps to getting better

A Poem by SadBones
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Just feelings you can read

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You said you loved me
That was a long time ago
The last time I saw you your eyes 
They were empty
I saw no love in your muddy brown eyes

You left me
You said "I can't do this anymore, I'm going crazy, you'll never change."
I felt as if those words Condemned me 
To this sadness, emptiness, hopelessness
To feel broken until I die

I can't escape those words
They echo through my head daily
Constantly beating me up
Telling me how crazy
Reminding me of everything wrong with me
Tormenting me with how everything was my fault

I once thought I'd never change too
So I guess your not the only one that feels that way
But I am slowly changing

You said "Your taking your medication but you aren't getting better."
Depression can't be changed with a magic pill
I would've taken it long ago

Who wants to live this way?

and it angers me I still love you
Because someone who loves another 
doesn't make them feel like a burden for something they cannot control

I say to myself:
I am human and I can get better
I am a good person
I am a strong person
I can go on without you
I can live happily
This wretched sadness is temporary
I deserve to live
Dying is not the solution
I won't be lonely forever
I am worthy of love
Life can be pleasurable 
I deserve kindness
I don't need anyone but myself

I will repeat those words of affirmation
Until I truly believe them
I will love myself
Because then I can get better

So f**k you, f**k you really hard with a giant pole.

© 2016 SadBones


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Wowwww. This is so so sad, and so deep too. Really well written; once again. I adore your poetry so much, and so much of it I can relate too. I especially like the part of this poem which says how he says your too crazy and left you, but after that you changed but you understand why he would've thought you wouldn't change, and the reason I like this so much is because this is LITERALLY what happened to me. I was dumped for being "too crazy" and it broke me. Excellent poem- with so much truth.

Posted 7 Years Ago


SadBones

7 Years Ago

I never saw this review! :( But thank you so my dear! It mean a lot to me that you can relate and t.. read more

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Added on June 13, 2016
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Tags: depression, grief, sadness, torment, self discovery, love, self, hate, tears

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