Merci de Mi (mercy of mine)(spanish)

I had some times in my life where these things were inevitable and I've pulled myself out of it since I could give myself a reason or excuse not to face this fear.

Merci de Mi

These mercies, they haunt

Torturement, hatred, fate

Sad tribulation, memories do,

comemmorate

Thy pain all owed unto, into onesself

I try forgetting, destroying this merci

my pain, still comfort is too much more

Above all, this flaunt upon myself

What shaunt occur again,

They show late loved one

A passed life which shall never much exist

Truths I bear

One to kill

Another, how it steals my soul

Pain to my soul, my eyes and chest

this which thou brings

I've wandered for a remedy or cure

A destruction of self

Which in case, no more, I would,

need heal of this hurt.

Only once have I examined, analyzed

Thyself, in hopes to diffuse

At this perserverence, come over myself,

such true venom of dead hatred, regret

For what once was there was now stolen

Slipped from veiw, though now hurt

Hatred, pure, unrelenting, had taken

into veiw

This theif I once knew, now grown and gone

They've let it be taken

Merci of dream and memory of hope

Their name and facial identity, some of their past,

all of their stories

I know each, dreadfully, forever by

What is left of my heart

For this I have gone

to "My Mourning Beach"

Recalled every line

Yes I followed Merci

Though, only for a time

For I never jumped in

Never gave myself a shot

Never followed thy own destiny, nor liberty

No, I never did, I was weaker than that

I will never stand strong to the bull

Lay weak in the cold

let go of the seeping, sad, sorrow

These  things bring power, resistance and wisdom

No, I never really "fell in love" more than

I wished

For I scoffed upon myself

And felt more damage is done to

Those who dare to understand,

rather than give up, forget, and keep

Ignorance

My first love, you stole nothing, though

reminded me, I forever had a freind,

In you.

However, to my second, my soul will ever yearn in panging constance for what you have taken, foremore what you replaced it with, that dark, black hole ongoing, so deep.

Your fanged snicker, smiling eyes and adorable face, forever, horridly, stuck in my mind.

You taught a lesson, one learned well,

To speak up when your soul cries out, or forever thyself will hate, that ongoing wail

You will never die, I know for you taunt my ache everlonger through the cracks in my mentality, all I seem to remember is you...

by quarintine_deathangel

all copyrights held to quarintine_deathangel

Author's Note

This was written about a crush I couldn't get out of my mind and the one thing I despise is fake love and untrue things, this was each to me untill after the fact when this person became more than a crush, too bad I'll never see them again.. Also, in second grade there was a kid I fell in love with, of whom I know today and am a freind of. When I think about the crush I have taunting my feelings day and night I feel a black hole of a nothingness in my soul and yes it hurts, although I don't cry for the fact that it is simply a sad mistake, not a tradgedy. Btw yes I am a female, no I don't act fluffy or nice more than I have to to be considered civil and sometimes I beat those boundries. I don't read a lot of poetry although I do write it when it comes to me, not what I'm told, I don't beleive it to be soulful if you must come up with it, this wasn't soulful and it's about the regret I face everyday for never telling that person I liked them. I could stalk them, however it will do me no more good than to say I am worthless and have no faith in destiny. that's about it, oh!, and I tend to write a lot since I feel details are imprtant, most people don't however XD

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I like the flow of thoughts and the strong description in the poem.
"My first love, you stole nothing, though
reminded me, I forever had a freind,
In you."
The first love is a permanent memory. A turning point in a young life. Thank you for the outstanding poetry.
Coyote

[Kiari Sabon]

i really love this and i wish you the best may you find a flame that will last with someone who will never give up on making that flame

[quarintine_deathangel]

I've proved 'love' to be a lie and trap that rips you apart and confuses the mentality, but thanx for the review and advice! ^.^ XD

[Kiari Sabon]

lol kay :} and no problem

[Victoria PoetryBunny]

Nice author's note and nice write. Details are well shown as well as the regret and the feelings in this. I had a crush and he knew I liked him a lot and he to liked me, I think I regret not kissing him to see the chemistry if it existed more, but I am glad he found someone else then me. Regret isn't a nice feeling... but this is a great write with it.

[EMF]

On the long side for most here on Writers Cafe, but I liked it. It's new and fresh. A good introduction to your work. You have a great flow and passion. Great job