Why I'm afraid to have children

Overfed or starved,

Could any be best?

Dead or unborn?

The choice is already made

 

I can barely keep myself alive

I would end up killing this child

Looking at him starving away

As I could never poison the one I love

 

When I borrow food, I mean it!

I can make warm porridge

Or any kind of puree

At any flavour you'd like

 

But a child?

How could he purge it back?

I would have to scratch his stomach

Until everything would be out

 

It crosses my mind at all times

But my illness already took this gift from me

As I cannot bear child

Reviews

[Eloha]

You truly have an unusual mind, we who suffer exceptionally well are drawn to writing, is it not?

You do realize if I was rich and powerful, i'd become your patron :==)

[Autumn]

It's motly from pain and mistakes we usually take our inspiration.

I've seen you had already publish some of your work, i would love to read them! Do you think i have any chance to publish some of mine?

[Eloha]

But surely you can find inspiration in love and celebrations?

[Autumn]

Sure thing too! But for what i've seen so far, people tend to prefer drama and suspense rather that a all-good-no-trouble-poem/story

For now i can't recall having written anything very happy xD

[Pax]

truthful end. sad that illness takes the gift you want the most.

[Crimson1]

naked, raw, and honest. emphasis on honest, which is the heart of good poetry. this is fit for something like zahir or glimmer train even. salud.

[writing mojo]

this is so sad, yet truly exposed in your personal demons, seems this writing is a purge of your burden ......thanks for sharing

[Autumn]

Thank you so much for your review!

[Ama May Cooper]

As someone who has exprienced the disorder you are speaking about i find it always englithening to see others that ateast understand the mindset... to see hwo other people have handled it.. strangly enough though i want nothing more than children and im aware far to aware that my sick thoughts should not be projected and hope your are rong for you to.. i hope you can have a child and that you recover one day.. weather you want to or not. I hope that you will be okay.
Your pieces touch me, and i adore the way you write. The only critism i can throw your way is that the flow is a little off, but the piece of such a harsh subject maybe the flow being off isn't such a bad thing... after all distress is never all that organized.

[Emrick]

do not be afraid to have children God knows where n how ul get the bread to feed it.he cant let an innocent child starve.