Sweet Dreams

Depression has a funny way of working,

Having me doubt everything I love,

Keeping me on my knees in tears,

Clutching at the chains around my ankles,

 

Loving you with all my broken heart,

Wanting you to keep holding my tight,

Hating myself for keeping you here,

Knowing you could be doing so much better,

 

You are everything I ever wanted,

The man I dreamed of since I was little,

Your love shouted from the rooftops,

Seeping into my veins, controlling me,

 

You could be so far ahead of me now,

But you’re standing here loving me,

Holding my hand tight, waiting,

Patiently for me to catch up to you,

 

Wanting that future you speak of,

Us together at the end of it all,

But knowing that we can’t get there,

Because of the chains around my ankles,

 

Promises made in sweet dreams,

I want you to have the entire world,

Instead of carrying me forward,

While I tend to that black dog here,

 

Depression has a funny way of working,

Leaving me questioning the worth,

Of me holding you back from your dreams,

Knowing that you could do so much more,

 

Keeping me on my knees in tears,

Wanting to love you harder, better,

Knowing that my depression keeps me here,

Wishing to give you the world you deserve.

Author's Note

We can't control the things that plague us, but we can choose to believe in the reality rather than what is in that deep dark pit.

Reviews

[drew garner]

Sad longing is so overdone but what most people don't get is that what makes it so impressive when someone succeeds at documenting it. I know this is more about depression but you also know you're not alone. and that is more than most of us can say. I don't know if this is autobiographical so I am reluctant to point out the subtle irony of doubt being the only thing holding you back from what you have. love is an expression of gratitude that we must go on and you already have more talent than most of us.

[Chris Shaw]

A relatable account of black dog and how it can warp all thinking and blot out the sunlight. You express your emotions very well in this fine piece of writing.

Chris

[Pure Evil]

Very well written and stated in a way I can relate to, nice job