Internal prison

Live captured or die freely

In the prison of my mind,

The chains around my limbs are useless,

For my fear, my terror

Is enough to capture me forever
I know of my demise
I can't prevent the dark blade from coming,
But I can prolong the destruction
A pit burns in my heart full of dreams
Accomplishments that can't be done
To say goodbye..
To lengthen my life...
I tell a story of magic
An accidental murder
Followed by a purposeful assassination
I speak of horrifying wonders
The pain and sorrow
Knowing you are racing against the clock
Without trying to fight it
I know, one day..
I'll have to stop running away
I will accept my fate with open arms
As I restrain my cries for help.
I have sinned,
I can't go back now
I'm guilty for crimes immeasurable
A hole of hatred burns through me
As I dwindle down the dark pathway
Afraid of my own shadow,
I willingly battle death
No weapon in sight, no sword in hand
I battle with my prayers
My hopes... my dreams
I want to be forgiven
I admit my wrongdoings
I accept my faults
Can you accept me?
I have lived a life
Hand-to-hand with my demons
I try to drown my fears in joyous distractions,
But instead they drown me in the sorrowful truth
Death has come by my pure hands
So injustice must be justified in the father's eyes
An eye for an eye
Heart for a heart
I unleash my fear-filled demons
They can no longer tear me apart
Now all I can do is beg
Beg for a life I have yet lived
Wasted years spent fruitlessly
Along with my time and energy
But I have lived a thousand lives
In the souls of whom I’ve touched
My heart beats solemnly
Thump....
Thump....
Thump....
Rekindle my flame before I fall
Let me beat again
for as I wait,
With emotions restraining my soul
I'm in a prison of the mind

Author's Note

Hope you don't hate it