Dreams of Uncertainty

The sigh escapes my lips before I can stop it
These late night news keep bothering me
Late information is useless
So when it's too late, why tell me?

These pages I keep passing are haunting me
Like ghosts in my dreams (and my dreams are dead)
They flew away in the strong aging wind
I couldn't stop them in their track
No one could

Yet I keep on trying to grasp that smile
Which once shone on my now cold lips
I waver and I panic
I scream and kick wildly
While time passes I waste it
Thinking about what it could be
And now time is gone (it can't be!)

It is time to leave the empty pages of my dead dreams
I should walk forward and leave behind the dried up tears

This hesitation is killing me
This indecision I can't shake off
My dreams, my life, my pride
I must decide on a new dream
But certainty eludes me
And fear remains, deeply
rooted in my being

(Decisions...)
Decisions...
I can't decide.
Why should I?
Can't I leave it for later?
Must it be such a great matter?
(I can't. I don't know!
Leave me alone...)

I'll forget these decisions for now
So I can rest soundly tonight
Tomorrow I'll cry for the unknown
In the future maybe...
(I'll choose to know)