angels fall from heaven
one by one
falling into the abyss of the black sea that lies in our world
the white foam choking their throats until they burn
dark fire skims the surface and emerges from below casting dark clouds of thick smoke into the night
the abyss gazes also
i'm alone
so very alone.
you know they're saying i'm crazy now.
ha, crazy can you believe that?
some say i need to be locked up in a strait jacket in a padded room.
ha.
images keep creeping to me, like the thick first sheet of winters chill.
i long for the touch of her soft olive skin the feeling of her and me as one
i long to smell her sweet scent as my thoughts get caught in her raven hair.
us as one. we are as one.
death cannot part a love so deep. so rich and pure.
i dont need to see pictures i have them in my head! haunting me everyday everywhere i go.
like the shadow of the devil there at every turn.
the blowing of the soft wind sprinkles my face with the stench of living. the rememberance of the things that reminds me of her. a child runs by, i think of my baby. my beautiful unborn baby. Anna? no.. Eva. yes. Eva thats what she wanted it to be named. but i was too wrapped up in the football game to care. "yeah yeah" thats what i said and she scolded me with her burning eyes. the same fire that captivated my every breath. the same flame that burned on our wedding day that still burns now. Eva...
they're clearer than any picture they can give me.
these images of life that eat away at my soul until it aches only to be woken.
they stand there in their suits and mustaches
not caring about a trial, not caring about anything but the next tee off.
but i care.
i will stare the b*****d in the face.
and laugh. i will laugh.
and as the cold tears run down my face i will pull the trigger to end his breath
to end mine.
ha.
to end the shadow that has haunted me. until that day comes i will wait.
and everyday the bare brick walls will grow thicker and closer to me until i'm enclosed
and the starit jacket grow tighter
and when the day comes i will stare him in the face
laughing as the tears roll down my cheek
thinking every moment of her my love.
and how he got to see the last bit of life in her eyes
just as i will see his last breath of who he truely is.
before they die you see who the b******s really are.
it all comes into there eyes
every evil they've done. every rape, murder, child they've ever killed.
the monster in the cavern that has crept into the light.
and my last words will sink into the skin as i solemnly recite through laugter
"and the accumulation of all your sex and lies and murder will pull you down to the fiery depths of hell where the flames will lick for your skin, burning you as you've burned me. and it will all end in these last few moments. where the angel stops falling. you...killed...me.
ha."
BANG.