Belief is to Sight as Love is to Life

He's everything I want, everything I need.
If I tell him how I feel, will he again want me?
Will he have me, imperfections and all?
The way so many others would, but it's for him I've fallen.
Tonight, I will dream; it will be of him.
It's the only place he's mine, the only place his love doesn't end...
If I fear the future, and don't believe the past
I don't think he'll ever be the one I have.
Can't I just see the truth, the way he feels
About me? Every day, selfdoubt, it kills...
More of me...and I let it.
What could I do? What is this?
Is this suicide?
Of the worst kind?
The slow kind, that takes forever,
But once you leave, you'll come back, never...
I'll be here for you all
Until all the way I've fallen
And hit the bottom of this empty hole.
Until I've been strung out upon this pole
Of pain, torturous disbelief.
I'll live green like a leaf,
And when my sun leaves
I'll crumble, brown like the autumn leaves...
Come back to me now,
Some how?
If I wanted you now,
Would you have me, somehow?
If I got on my knees,
Would you believe me?
Believe my neverending love is true?
And that it's only for you?
This love is only for you...