Avoid The Smile

I hurt people without trying,
not even a little bit.
I'll easily break your heart
And not even say a word.
I'll make you feel some type of way with just one smile and I swear,
you'll try repeatedly every other morning to forget about me,
but it won't work as much.
Trust me.
I didn't want you to like me.
I don't want your written song of poetry
or the uncaptured moments of us
taking place inside your head
because I'm not good enough.
I don't want to hurt anyone,
especially if you're the one making
everything seem special enough to share with me.
I can't give you all the soft kisses.
If I hug you once,
I'll suddenly feel your warmth;
driven in all these emotions coming from
the slightest grip of your lucent heart.
I must resist.
I can't give you anything because
one day, i will no longer be enough.
It's a simple fact:
If I give you all of me,
would you handle it?
I'm too much for myself but I've gotten to accept it..
And eventually,
it has led me here.
I hurt people and I don't mean to do it, ever.
I just hope you believe me
because out of all the things -
I'm bound to do quite selfishly,
with no motive standing next in line.
One thing to always keep in mind:
Avoid the smile.
So, you don't fall deep within
reach of my soul.
Pairing the two,
while others have given up hope.
Tossing out it's mistreated affection.
Thrown out into the open for nothing,
and all this will stir up
a coffin of early promises,
with a bucket list of ideas remaining untouched, and another memory left aside.
I don't want this to be another lost moment.
Believe me,
I would love for you to be my light,
the one to hold my patience.
To be dearly true with all the spoken words being gently embraced: by kindly sharing all it's
chemistry as one spirit.
I'm afraid to hurt you,
if you ever come my way..
I hope you forgive me for it;
when the time comes.
I had to resist myself from you
because I know,
you'll be broken when we fall apart.
If I push you the other direction;
I'm doing it for you.
I'm doing it because I want to save you
from the bottom of this empty lot.
I don't want you to feel empty.
I want you to feel whole.
I don't want to be in the middle of your pain
when you can't handle it because
I can't stand to see you broken.
This is how I'll save you.
I'll save you from me.
I'll show you how much I love you.
Look into my eyes,
Feel me as I change,
Hear my voice,
Captive all the thoughts,
Share this moment and
Understand why it hurts to see the rain
from yesterday's storm.
We are both caught up in a love remotely, disregarded for it's flaws but somehow,
in some way..
It'll be enough for a moment,
but not enough to balance itself out
in the end.

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[emmajoy]

'I would love for you to be my light, ~ the one to hold my patience. ~ To be dearly true with all the spoken words being gently embraced: ~ by kindly sharing all it's chemistry as one spirit. ~ I'm afraid to hurt you, ~ if you ever come my way.. ~ I hope..'

Have spent half an hour reading the first four of your posts and am truly amazed that nobody's found the power of your words or the intentions you left behind - though whether or not to inspire understanding or absolute bewilderment! You tempt argument or doubt rather like the matadow with a cape... sweeping words before thought: quite astounding for me, tho maybe i'm wrong to think that way. Of this post, i do wonder if 'the lady protests too much' or indeed has been cut to pieces then self-medicated upside down and roundabout. Your words excite thought, phrases turn on themselves and people need read and learn just a little more of what, who, you are. Perhaps?