Alone

Its how i felt. Nothing more.

Thoughts of my own

Opinions yet to be heard

I can think for myself

But they all think that’s absurd

 

Patiently I sit aside

Wondering if I will ever speak for myself

But as of this moment

I remain silent

To keep the peace in my home

To play a part that isn’t really me

 

No one will ever see who I truly am

For who I am is not who they want me to be

I wear a mask all the time

Hiding what truly is inside

 

                My heart never to be seen by another

                                Alone I must stay

 

                My head spins all the time with unspoken words

                                I wish just once I would not have to hide

 My true thoughts

                                Alone I still remain

 

                Thoughts of my own

                                Opinions yet to be heard

                I can think for myself

                                But they think that’s absurd

 

                In my own mind I hide

                                Shut off from the world

                Not wishing it to see me

 

                I complicate so many lives just being here

                                But to leave would require courage

                Courage that has been stolen from me

                                I sit still alone unable to speak the truth

                So far into lies I fear there will be no return

 

                My heart has been shattered one too many times

                                By words spoken of anger and unrest

                Thrown at me as if am nothing more

                                Than a rug to be walked on

 

                Alone I remain in this dark world

                                And alone I shall be when this dark world

                Comes to a fatal end