InsomniaA Poem by ZeldablueI spin the clock and watch the numbers slowly drip backwards down my bedroom walls The eternal darkness engulfs me like a smoldering blanket of exquisite wonderment I lie awake as the silence reverberates in my ears It torments me like an evil clown Shrieking with laughter so loud so shrill That it cracks the porcelain doll that I have become I light a candle to see my broken fragments, to behold the glorious pieces of myself scattered like glitter on my bedroom floor My beauty swept up in the ashes of my childhood "Your ugly," she says "Your worthless," she says "You should of been a boy," she says. But I'm not a boy I'm a little girl hiding in the closet Praying Praying that your rage filled hands stop punishing my existence Praying that you stop dragging my innocence through the jagged lines of my tears Praying that the monster that lives in the back of your throat chokes on the venom that you spit over and over and over again I spin the clock and watch the numbers drip slowly down my bedroom walls The grains of reality melting away as I twirl like a fairy princess through the fluttering crowd of neon lights and chemically induced smiles. The music ravaging my entire body like electrocution to my bones. My movements whimsical uninhibited free I spin the clock "Will you marry me" I spin the clock "I can't save you" I spin the clock "Get off me" I smash the clock "I'm gone" I stare at the moon and talk to the stars I hum love songs softly to myself while drawing imaginary pictures in the obscurity of my room I smile at the thought of summers so magnificent rainbows melt in the sweet summer sun I smile at the beautiful faces of my daughters laughing at the magical moments of their imagination I smile at true love sweet nothings and sapphire kisses I smile because life is a fantastic thing when you learn to let go and live it
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StatsAuthorZeldablueAboutWhen she is quiet There is a reason. She is sorting through All the chaos in Her head... And all the madness In her heart. LLK more..Writing
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