The Poetic Rhymes of a Dope-Fiend

Res Ipsa Loquitur

The California Sun shines bright, so warm

yet inside of myself, I feel so cold

Just barely a week into turning

that always macabre age of thirty years old

and it's not like I've really set the World on fire

with my success, you know

but f**k it, I'm from West Stockton

and that's how wanna-be white-boy gangsta's like to roll

You really wanna know what I think was dumb?

Something I really wish I had never f*****g done,

was swallow that first pain-pill

that never made me feel pleasure that real or even fun

Barely even helped murder that God-damned pain

that late at night, when a full moon

shines through the spring rain

can cause a man once sane

to go crazy, lunatic insane

truthfully the pills don't work that well

but it still becomes a compulsive habit

before you can even begin to tell

if a person has the mind of an addict

This ain't the sixties nor the seventies

and maybe we've learned not to trust The White Rabbit

or at least, not entirely

I'm unemployed ever since Barnes and Noble fired me

I can't get another job 'cause I can't pass a piss test

so no-one will hire me

These long nights with no sleep

are starting to tire me

Yet I fear I'm already in too deep

as the pain in the joints of my body worsen

to the point where I want to weep

and I know that hydrocodone will bring sweet relief

if even for a period of time that is all too brief

I'm starting to seriously believe that the pain

the pills take away doesn't match the grief

I feel when I'm lying alone in my bed

with strange thoughts echoing about in my head

smoking on that weed

trying to keep my muddled mind off the fact

my legs are absolutely crawling

Sweat pours down my face

as I'm trying to figure out what is causing

the stomach cramps and when the liquid diarrhea

comes, I'm like 'No s**t, I'm withdrawing.'

I suffer through it all but total abstinence

is something I always seem to be PAWSing

Man, I'm not going to lie but I do love to get so high

that my head dips down as I'm nodding

off with a cigarette burning a hole in the flesh

of my hairless, white chest

Another stoned reject stuck West-Bound

In the City of Stock-town

And, Mama, I swear if I don't die from an over-dose

some-day I'll actually have money

to buy you some new clothes

Until then......in Body, Spirit, and Mind

I will continue to struggle and strive

and try to make it out of this life alive

(in the two-oh-nine)

Kazinsky

W(2)E(0)S(9)T

022813

-- God Bless the Dead --

Reviews

[Southern Cross]

I took the challange because you said I wouldn't like your other work. This is raw , open and has that bite to it. We all have our addictions..Mine was love..They all cause scars. The healing process is long but when one finally emerges from the cave and feels the freedom, the fight to overcome it was worth its teadious struggle. I pray I never have a relapse.

[KAOlmsted]

I felt this in my bones. Great job.

[Debbie_Philly]

This is a great and raw, powerful piece of writing and.. i so understand for many reasons.... Hold on and keep writing it out... great Job !!

[Baby Ricochet]

We all have our demons to cope with. This is a good, descriptive tale of yours. Good job sir.

[de_maruf]

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As mechanisms of social interaction, institutions are manifest in both formal organizations, such as the U.S. Congress, or the Roman Catholic Church, and, also, in informal social order and organization, reflecting human psychology, culture, habits and customs, and encompassing subjective experience of meaningful enactments. Most important institutions, considered abstractly, have both objective and subjective aspects: examples include money and marriage. The institution of money encompasses many formal organizations, including banks and government treasury departments and stock exchanges, which may be termed, "institutions," as well as subjective experiences, which guide people in their pursuit of personal well-being. Powerful institutions are able to imbue a paper currency with certain value, and to induce millions into cooperative production and trade in pursuit of economic ends abstractly denominated in that currency's units.[citation needed] The subjective experience of money is so pervasive and persuasive that economists talk of the "money illusion" and try to disabuse their students of it, in preparation for learning economic analysis.[citation needed]

[Andrew N. Farrens]

I honestly am perplexed at your review, as it seems to be a copy and paste job from unreliable wikipedia. I apologize for missing the point, though I sincerely doubt there is any......

[Anamika]

really awesome feels like a song

[lee von cleef]

popping tunes race to a pick up beat
Rumble in the back seat
Time trip all around
key words balance in my brain
Alive , Alive carries a lot of weight.

[Enid Blake]

Such a real, raw write - love it.

[gombeggar]

well...certainly a free bit of expression...that's always good

[Dayran]

You need a change of pace. Go someplace nobody knows you and start all over. It may save your life.