Don't Hate, Appreciate

A Poem by Ashley Marie

My poem about bullying& some of my experience with being bullied this is really personal&emotional for me, It all got better I still hear comments, now it doesn't really fase me I'm in a better place

I've been bullied, I've been pushed around till I fell to the ground

And kicked while I was down till tears streamed upon this frown

I was the new girl in town and I wasn't like the others

I was scared, wished someone could protect me maybe some more brothers

I've been tortured at school hid behind the bleachers

Everyone made fun of me students, family, even the teachers

There wasn't one day I could get away

I only hear the bad things that people say

I was called almost every name in the book

Their words reeled me in like a fish on a hook

Thunder thighs,gap toothed,ugly,meatball,sashqatche,fatass

72 pounds isn't big for a 6th grader stop talking about my mass

I couldnt stop crying can't see through the fog

Why do these kids treat me as if I'm a dog

Why do they get so much enjoyment to see the pain see me cry till my eyes burn

Are they done yet oh wait it's someone else's turn

Tears keep streaming down my face I feel like a baby but it just won't stop

My face doesn't stay clean for long it wouldn't even if you used a mop

I told one girl she looked better with her hair down she told everyone that I'm a lesbian

She was a snob and should have understood how much of a bully she was being

When I sobbed they wouldn't stop, why wont you stop I wanna go home

But soon enough home wasn't safe I wasn't even safe alone

I've cut, I've bled tears I have shed

I cried myself to sleep almost every night in bed

As I awaken I can't be excited for the day

I know they'll come after me with their word's, I get it just leave me alone okay

They messed with my emotions yes I was a wreck

I felt like an out cast I felt like shrek

Your'e fat, your'e ugly there's no reason for you to live they say

I wish all these voices in my head would just go away

When your family starts teasing you there's not much more you can do

But sit there suffer and wonder if they love or hate you too

It got so bad I couldn't do it anymore I had to switch my school

First day there I walked down the hall and got made fun of it wasn't even cool

Why is it everywhere I go I'm treated like a clown

I can't be strong forever at some point I'm going to break down

I made a few friends but at first they didnt even like me

But then they gave me a chance and saw the beautiful person I could be

Eventually they became my best friends but I still felt alone

I wanted to be that girl that a boy would go to his family to have shown

I fell for a guy but now I'm not even sure why with all the horrible things he did

I was stupid I believed him every word that he said I was a foolish little kid

Treated me like dirt, he loved me one minute then hated me the next

Cheated on me, flirted right in front of my face, I was only one girl to text

I wanted to get out of my shell and become a cheerleader

My mom didn't believe I could do it I guess I don't need her

I did it, proved her wrong and I made the squad

I felt so accomplished I felt like god

But soon one boy attacked me at school and everyone saw

He gave me a concussion and a hairline fracture in my jaw

I was embarrassed and scared to go back to school

It spread around the town everyone knew I felt like a fool

I didn't go back to school after a month, didn't know what people would say

All I knew is I needed to do my work I had to go back some day

My best friend Georgia came and visted me in my house

She brought me a card everyone signed,coloring pictures of cats and even a mouse

It made me feel better like people cared even a little bit

They said he was a woman beater cuase it was only a girl that he hit

I still don't think it's fair that he got teased but at least he learned his lesson

People thought that it should be his own gender and size he should be messing

One summer I lost so much weight I don't know how

When I went back to school everyone asked is that ashley?.. wow

With beauty comes great responsibility

I was told I was cute with a big heart and a lot of capability

But a few still called me fat so I didn't eat as much

I felt gross I couldnt even look at myself wouldn't even touch

I was so confused some people thought I was beautiful

Others thought the way I looked was dreadful

The media tells me I should look one way thin is the in thing they say

Diet this diet that curvy is out cruvy is back, you will never get your way

You have to be barbie you have to be perfect little girls can't handle all the stress they make

Do you really want your daughters to strave themselfs to death, how much more can they take

It's amazing how bad words can hurt they sunk into my head so deeply

Ignore them I was told they'll stop but that doesn't always work completely

After I moved I fell into such a deep depression I wanted to start high school with all my friends

After a while I wanted to get out but stayed home to take care of my mother it never ends

But one speicail person helped me out of my depression

From that moment on my life started progression

He saw right through me like a detective

He changed my life he changed my perspective

I became the person that lied deep down inside me

Just being your self and not being afriad is the key

Be unique, be yourself just be you

You'll get more friends you wouldn't have a clue

I still have some chub so what

At least I'm not a stick and have hips and a butt

Do you want to be remebered as a bully someone that toutured others

Or the person that helped people, they felt like sisters and brothers

A lot of people don't understand the consequences their actions can make

Some people kill them self's, some kill others when you bully that's a chance you take

But you shouldn't kill yourself kill the part of you that you hate

It all get's better someday just wait

All wounds will heal in time

And eventually you'll have your chance to shine

I'm not good enough you will think but you say I have to just be me

If they won't give you a chance they won't see the amazing person your destined to be

You can always forgive but never forget the past is the past but memoires will last

Don't worry karma will get them back slowly but not fast

I was one of the strong ones,enough to dig myself out of the hole they buried me in

People need to stop judging a book by it's cover and see the beauty that's withen

You dont even know how strong that cover is

So what if their mentally disabled or a math wiz

You don't know who they are you don't know where they come from

You don't know what your missing out on until friend of theirs you become

I'm sick of kid's faces being smashed into the tar

Change needs to happen in the world before it goes to far

This was just one exsperince there are millions of others out there

Will you be there for the ones that won't speak up will you even care

The bully's don't even know one day we might become their boss

Stand up for yourself don't wait for someone like the on man the cross

Though I've struggled though I've hurt

I got myslef out of the dirt

There's more to the story but I'll stop right here

There's a lot of pain in life you'll endure

But I guess it was a good thing in a way

It made me into the person that I am today

And here I am sharing my story with others

So get out of your bed stop hiding under the covers

I was there, I'm with you, you are not alone you see

That's why I told my story for you to feel better not for sympathy

Life if full of ups and downs but you turn back around

It's a roller coaster ride the best that I have found

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Put to a beat, these words would make good lyrics. I played it in my mind like a hip-hop song. :)
To improve the "flow" of this, I would suggest changing the wording up a bit so that each line is closer to the same length. Its good as it is, but it could be made better with some smoothing.
Thanks for sharing your story.