My final day

Suicidal feelings... Poem written about the final day.

the sadness thats inside

fills my mind with rage

and there's no way for me to get it out

it just sits there and sits there

until i cant it take it anymore

i hit that point where i need a release

but there's nothing there

no more blades, no more pot

no more bruises, no more spots

the pain inside never goes away

it just sits there 

and wallows.. 

like my mind, 

thoughts go quick

breathing ceases to exist,

light turns to dark 

and sound becomes no more

there's nothing quiet like it 

i have dug my hole

as the noose around my neck tightens 

i send out my last prayers

my vision is gone

as long as i live

my breath stops

with the air

the pain i feel raises

and then simply disappears

the sadness is gone 

and the rage has dispersed

the happiness settles in 

as im whisked away by a hearth

so long my good friends 

and thoughts in my head

forever remember me 

as the lone broke soul

goodbye to my loved ones

and so long my worst fears

no one will miss me

since im already gone

nothing shall haunt me 

as im already going cold

goodbye cruel world and everything that remains

ill see you in heaven 

on that one sunny day

 

Author's Note

may be triggering.. please give me thoughts on what you think.