My Daily Routine

Dealing with separation is harder when everything in your daily routine reminds you of him.

05:00: Wake up, get up from bed, wash up

(Wonder if you're already up)

05:15: Brew coffee, toast bread, drink coffee, eat bread

(Wonder if you've already had breakfast)

05:30: Bathe, dry hair, dress for work

(Wonder if you're dressing up, too)

06:00: Lock the house, walk to the bus stop, commute to work.

(Wonder if you're taking the bus or the train)

07:00: Log in, check pending emails or pretend to do so

(Wonder what you're doing now)

09:00: Take a 15-minute coffee break and pretend to listen to the senseless chatter around the                   cafeteria

(Wonder if you're taking a break too)

09:15: Return to cubicle and pretend to work

(Wonder how your day is going)

12:00: Take my lunch break, feign interest in my lunchmate's tale of woe

(Wonder what you're having for lunch)

13:00: Get back to work or at least pretend to

(Wonder if you're enjoying your day)

16:00: Log out, sign off, walk to bus stop, commute back home

(Wonder if you still working overtime)

17:00: Open door to an empty apartment, change, prepare dinner.

(Wonder if you're home now)

18:00: Eat dinner in front of TV, wash dishes, tidy kitchen

(Wonder what you're having for dinner)

20:00: Shower, have a hot cup of tea before going to bed

(Wonder if you're having tea, too, like we used to)

21:00: Lay in bed, stare up the ceiling, let the tears flow...

And wonder if you're snuggling close to her now, if you're whispering sweet nothings into her ear as you slowly wrap your arms around her waist, if you're planting sweet kisses on her nape now, just like you used to do, a hundred lifetimes ago, when I was still your world and you were still mine..

And as the night turns into morning, I wonder if my heart will ever stop breaking

And if I'd ever be able to stop this daily routine

Now that you're gone and no longer mine...

Reviews

[Relic]

This reads like someone with an obsession but I understand the feeling. I was also a bit obsessed myself with a girl for years. After she started dating someone I had a tinge of jealousy in me. This year, I gave it up. I hardly think abut her. When I think of all the time I wasted thinking about someone I could never have, I can't believe it. What a waste.
Live and learn.

Good writing.

[BbCherryTomato]

Thank you for the comment and saying that this is good writing. Really appreciate that. I agree with you, when we get over the pain, we regret wasting our time and tears over someone who wasn't truly ours anyway. But that's life. We just need to know when to move on. :)

[Mist of Nightmares]

its hard when the other person does not even think :)
its so true when that person was your world you associate everything with them , each song each habit and then suddenly they are gone with the wind and they forget you even existed for them... the pain is too much to bear... i guess writing helps..it helps me... to get all the thoughts that trouble me. .. hope we see the day when we can move on and be at peace with ourselves.. :) hugs

[BbCherryTomato]

Yes, writing does help. I'm sure we'll all move on one day and find happiness again...whether alone or with someone else...it doesn't really matter, does it? Just as long as the pain stops and we see sunshine again. Thanks for your kind words...hugs :)