I'll Survive

Bad days...

My reality
It's different from theirs
My thoughts
Mine alone
Cut off from the rest
My purpose in life
Mere survival
Doubts cloud my vision
Can't make a decision
So many factors
So many variables
So many things left to do
But what's it all for
Just another grain in this endless desert
A desert surrounded by mist
Filled with thorns and pricks

I asked for help
I said please
But they only laughed
Thought I was weak
Tried choking the life out of me
Couldn't see
Thoughts getting blurry

But I'll survive
I'll do what I must
I'll become the hunter
I'll engulf them all
Prey and predators 
Weak and strong
Stab them
Choke them
Devour them
Erase them
I'll do whatever it takes
To hear their screams
Cries of agony and pain
I'll get even
Stalk like a phantom
Strike like a fang
Reap like death
Just a matter of time
It's power that I desire
Power to please my hallowed soul

Can't breathe
Can't think
Where does it begin 
Where does it end
I don't belong anywhere, I'm not going anywhere
The world keeps on turning around me
Faster and faster
But that's fine 
The world is always turning for my sake
That's why I've got nothing to feel sad about
I'll survive