forever.

 

I don't know what I am thinking.
my mind is moving faster than light.
my heart is moving faster.
I am sobbing.
I cannot stop.
I am a whiner.
I am annoying.
I lose friends over this.

I cannot stop.
because all I think of is you.
all I breathe is you.
and its so stupid.
so useless.

I just want to see you.
I want you to reassure me everything will be okay.
I need to stop this. but I can't.
I feel like something is trying to escape.

I want the world to know.
I almost want you to know.
today is one hell of a day.
my heart hurts, my head hurts.

its becoming to much.
I love you being all around.
I hate you being all around.

I want to hold you in my arms.
whisper all my thoughts and dreams in
your ears.


but that never will happen.
I need to find someone else.
but I can't.
will I forever love you?