Forgivness

I have written this following an assault that my now ex boyfriend did on Saturday night to me which almost resulted in my death...

You tried to break me
The devil wore your skin as clothing
And it was the perfect fit
He smiled with your lips
that I once believed were beautiful
And as soft as the petals of a rose
And he laid hands on me
Hands that's held and trusted
Trusted to never touch me in the ways you did that night
He used your voice to taunt me
To try and install fear that would make me weak
But instead it filled me
Filled me with the adrenaline I needed to scream
A blood chilling scream that pleaded
for deaf ears to have clarity
And for the ears of God to answer my prayers
Prayers for someone to intervene and to stop the chaos
Chaos that for you was a game
But for me nearly ended in a wretched breath
But I am not broken

And I forgive you
But the forgiveness isn't because you deserve it
And it isn't to make you feel better
Because you don't deserve anything close to forgiveness
I forgive you because I deserve the peace
And rest from the torment
And a break from the nightmares
And to be me again