Good Bye My Friend

A woman deals with the emotions of ending an abusive marriage and says goodbye to her abuser.

I said good bye

to my best friend today

I tried to love you

I begged you to seek help

I saw all the signs

You did not hear my pleas

until the day came

when you had already struck

 

I pled with family

He is not normal

I told them

I knew it

I saw it

but they could not

Closed eyes and hearts

lead to tragedies

I have seen it myself

with one dead boy

They will ignore you

until you are a headless

corpse on the front lawn too

I will not watch that happen

 

 

Why could you not hear me?

I spoke clearly, calmly and without a mar

You knew my rules

No more second chances

I would walk away

No regrets

None at all

The fool is you now

 

I do not deserve the bruises

nor the tears

nor the emptiness

nor the fears

 

The lies were undeserving

Will you tell the truth?

Or mire deeper

Deception rots the soul

Eventually the lies

will become your reality

 

My friend I fear for you

yet I fear you

so I need to be

free of you

Far away and safe

You chose not to touch me

with love

you will not touch me in anger

ever ever again

 

No more burning unkind word will

my ear sting

No more pain will your

presence bring

 

I had those dreams of us

growing old together

you then pushed me away

when I needed love most

and continued to hurt me

because I no longer fit into your plan

Your momma's perfect little

white picket fence dream

Remember when you told me?

I was more important than that plan.

I know now you were lying then too

because it was then that you said you loved me

we do not bruise those we love

 

Did you swear on grandma then when you lied?

last night when you claimed you love me

Just to try to save yourself from reality

being accountable for your actions

I am not around to blame now

You cannot scorn me

I don't care

You cannot hurt me

any longer

I went through hell

and survived

and I will win

Why?

I lived with you

and am still strong

you did not break me

No one ever will

 

I will live on

to be happy, vibrant

and much more

and my knight

will be a mere

memory

a reminder

of what never to do again