Late Night Fright

No matter how hard I fight I still try to relocate the fright I feel when I am with you still.

Its not alright but I keep telling myself soon it just might be what i want but i know it will not.

The thoughts provoke me and choke me but I'm looking for that something to hold me in the night.

The fright is looking at me right in my eyes and that is when I realize it wont be alright, it wont be tonight. 

I will push it to the back of my mind and see if tomorrow I'll be in my right mind.

Hoping to feel again but that is impossible and I am irresponsible but oh so knowledgeable. Everyone thinks I'm tolerable and its awful when I don't want to disappoint but there comes again that fright that I might disappoint. All of this is so dreary and makes my body and mind weary so I will keep sleeping and hoping that tomorrow I wont spend it moping and mindlessly hoping that i'll wake up nearing what I'm dreaming.

Author's Note

First time posting something I wrote really quickly from my notes in my phone, hoping some of you will enjoy and will go on to read some other pieces I write