The Evil Inside

The Evil Inside

A Poem by AaronFreitas
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Don't know what evil is consuming my thoughts lately

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I feel it coming again…
Disconnecting from the world.
Crawling into my dark hole,
Pushing everyone away.
I want to be loved, yet…
Want to be alone.
Alone to sulk in my own depression…
To search for clarity in purpose.
My loneliness gets lonelier...
My sadness gets darker,
And evil takes control
Of this ill fated mind.
Why can't I pull away? 
Why can't I stay strong?
When I push these demons away 
They fight to come back!
Come back for control
To overtake my mind.
Corrupt my soul and 
Leave me hurting.
Leave me gasping for faith;
I'm searching for strength.
Desperate for my faith but
Right now the devil is on the move.
Pushing, consuming, trying
To overtake me.
Pushing my triggers…
Finding my deepest scars.
Reminding me that he
Is always here on earth with me.
Slowly digging into me.
My weakness is my emptiness.
My strength is a distant memory.
Find me... I'm lost and alone.

 


© 2015 AaronFreitas



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There is no one to find you. It is you who must find yourself. And when you do, you might discover there is no one there. Then, you will either despair or you will survive to MAKE yourself. One must not find themself, one must create themself. There is no devil to oppress you, there is only you. You are the devil and you are the angel. These forces of good and evil compose your being. To wrestle with the devil is to refrain your own hand. Understand and embrace yourself for everything that you are; good and evil, right and wrong. Embrace who you are. This is hope. This is faith. To hope in yourself. To have faith and believe in yourself both as you are and as you can become. Why do you cry aloud for someone else who cannot help you? YOU can help you. You define you, you are you, you control you. Don't wait to be found. Build something for us to discover.

Posted 2 Years Ago


3 of 3 people found this review constructive.

AaronFreitas

2 Years Ago

Thank you very much Mr. Firtch... appreciate the words... the review... your comments. Thank you! :.. read more
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Calamityofgin

1 Year Ago

So which should he do French..embrace himself as he is or create himself..totally confused by this.



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You save yourself or remain unsaved. As for your poem though, it's a stark look at what goes on in a troubled mind. It's good to purge all that, and leave it on the page.

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

AaronFreitas

2 Years Ago

Thank you Katrina... definitely best to get it all out and move past it :) Appreciate your review
Through your darkest day, you'll find your way. He is always there to help you find your way as well as to finding yourself. One thing I do know. You are never alone. It will pass my friend.

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

AaronFreitas

2 Years Ago

Thank you my friend... appreciate you reading and reviewing :)
I think...I can relate. Contradictions of the mind. The devil's always there, but I think love is always stronger!

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

AaronFreitas

2 Years Ago

Love is always stronger buddy... thanks for the review :)
There is no one to find you. It is you who must find yourself. And when you do, you might discover there is no one there. Then, you will either despair or you will survive to MAKE yourself. One must not find themself, one must create themself. There is no devil to oppress you, there is only you. You are the devil and you are the angel. These forces of good and evil compose your being. To wrestle with the devil is to refrain your own hand. Understand and embrace yourself for everything that you are; good and evil, right and wrong. Embrace who you are. This is hope. This is faith. To hope in yourself. To have faith and believe in yourself both as you are and as you can become. Why do you cry aloud for someone else who cannot help you? YOU can help you. You define you, you are you, you control you. Don't wait to be found. Build something for us to discover.

Posted 2 Years Ago


3 of 3 people found this review constructive.

AaronFreitas

2 Years Ago

Thank you very much Mr. Firtch... appreciate the words... the review... your comments. Thank you! :.. read more
This comment has been deleted by the poster.
Calamityofgin

1 Year Ago

So which should he do French..embrace himself as he is or create himself..totally confused by this.

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