Sink or Swim

Every once in a while I just write in no particular format, don't edit hardly anything and post it. Just raw thoughts. These came as I was sitting on my porch thinking all alone.

If I could capture this moment... this time of my life, it would probably look something like a statue of a broken man... blunt in hand and a beer in the other staring up at passing clouds that turn to a clear night and stars wondering where do I go from here? How do I move forward with life? Right now I'm slowly deteriorating like decaying wax in a candle jar and my life is melting before my eyes. I've got to get up and do something with myself instead of wondering how to categorize these thoughts of mine. Even the small ant that slowly crawls up my leg as I write this is chasing a bigger dream than I.... the ant thinks about reaching the top as I observe and wallow in self-pity and wonder what could have been. Well.... what can become? It’s time to get up and grasp a dream and start chasing with a full head of steam. I just hope I don't hit the ground too hard when I fall... but I will get back up and keep chasing that dream because in life we sink or swim and I've already sunk to the bottom... all that's left is to lightly tread back to some familiarity.

Author's Note

Let me know your thoughts please :)

Reviews

[Luna]

I love all the imagery, it's like I'm there with you, sinking except, well it's never too deep. I haven't reached the bottom, or I have and I'm okay with it? So what if we have dreams in life, and what is next for us after we've reached our goals, Life is pointless no matter how big or small our dreams are. Sinking in the void that is left by this life we had no word in is only natural, we don't know what we are doing here, it's an endless circle, dreaming and feeling like we could fly, then losing hope and sinking to the bottom of despair, either way, it's absurd.

[AaronFreitas]

You make a great point Luna :) Sometimes you are damned at the top and damned at the bottom... I guess it becomes about finding what makes you happy as a person... and that I am still searching for. Thanks for your review :)

[Madison Rose]

Wowwwww! I luvvvvvvv this story! :)
I had a big smile when I thought for a second that you were describing me! The part when you wrote "I've got to get up and do something with myself instead of wondering how to categorize these thoughts of mine," this describes me Aaron! :)
I love how you used the ant as part of your story. The whole story was motivating, well done Aaron! :)

[AaronFreitas]

Haha thanks Madison :) I am glad you can relate to those words and thoughts. It's funny I was sitting there in my chair writing this into my phone when the ant started crawling on me. I figured it was just more truth going into this story. Thank you for your review and your continuous support :)

[Jamestown]

Well penned!
Really cool title and great expression and heart
shown in this piece:) You know I'm praying for you
my friend, thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you James... you are a great friend. Appreciate it buddy :)

[Willard Wells]

I think you just took a different approach to the same thought I did today. The difference is age. When I'm a lazy SOB, I just blame it on age. You my friend don't have that excuse. But then again you could use the I young and don't know yet. Well you and I have both read your writing and we know you know the correct answer and direction to go. Everything in it's time my friend. "Rome was not build in a Day". Nice free run of your mind.

[AaronFreitas]

I read yours and thought the same thing... two similar writes. Mine... well I was sitting on my porch working on my yard when I just sat there a while then broke out the phone and typed this write in. I think a lot of it is catching a break and moving forward... it will come :) Thanks buddy

[Perkele.7885]

Did you happen to bring a spare air tank with you. we might need it to stay at different levels so we do not get the bends when I bring you up cause you way down there boy. Next thing, Take those rocks out of your pockets as that will help up get you to the top as well. When I get you to the top, I am gonna turn you over to cousin JayCee to polish you up all over and make you shine like a nature boy.

[AaronFreitas]

haha thanks a lot Raj :) Your words brightened my day buddy

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I really like your writing, Aaron. It's deep and yet so open. You're not alone in these thoughts. Many people feel the same way and you make them feel a little less singled out. Purpose...everyone wants one. Perhaps yours is reaching out to everyone who's afraid to :) This was deeply penetrating, dear poet

[AaronFreitas]

Possibly... any purpose is good. I appreciate your feedback and kind words :) Thank you lynn

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When you find yourself at the bottom my friend there is only one way to go, and that is up. That you are writing about it tells me that you want to move forward... I hope your anchors don't keep you down too long... be well and keep your head pointed towards the surface...

[AaronFreitas]

Appreciate the support FT... up is the only way to go :)

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Yes, my friend. and it is a good way... grab on to all that you can to help you get to that surface... will keep you in my thoughts and prayers :)