I'm Sorry

Mom, I remember how I cried

every single time you yelled at me.

I remember how I cried

when you grounded me and never let me free.

I remember how much I cried

when I thought you loved my brother more.

I remember why I cried when

you scolded me for his book that I tore.

I cried when I saw you crying

Over silly quarrels with dad that you had.

I cried when I heard your voice

Break over the phone when you were sad.

I cried when I felt that hug

was a yearning for love that you never got.

I cried when I heard dad say

that things between you and him will never be sort.

I'd never forget that painful day

when you'd hit me, the one and only time.

But when I learnt you were depressed,

I remember how tears filled up my eyes.

I'll never forget the day when you

hugged me and asked me to be yours forever.

When you broke down and said

things weren't going well and that they might never.

We cried a lot, we cried together,

I've cried for you and you did for me.

But never had I hurt you, mom,

Like I did today, reason whatever be.

I cannot forget, though I do want to,

that face of yours when I yelled at you.

I cannot take out the sight from my head,

I cannot let it be and just walk through.

I screamed at you, I said you were

the worst mother on Earth I'd met.

I knew you weren't, you knew that too!

And you would let that pass, I could bet.

But things didn't turn out the way I'd thought,

'Cause I saw that glint in your eye.

A single drop of tear fell down,

And for the first time, I'd made you cry.

II realised what I'd done a little too late

when I saw your gaze fall to the ground.

But I didn't apologize; my ego was at stake;

so I left you crying there and turned around.

I've hurt you, but I didn't mean to,

I wanted to say, i wanted to speak.

But again something stopped me there,

something made me just too weak.

Mom, I'm sorry, i really am.

I didn't mean a word of what I said.

I love you forever, I love you a lot.

Deep inside you too know that very well.

Please mom, come give me a hug.

Forgive this little girl for whatever she said.

You know what an idiot she is,

 you know that she's a stupid dumbhead.

And when you"ll come and forgive me, mom,

Again I'll break, again I'll cry.

I know you too will have tears in your eyes,

But this time they'll be tears of joy...

Reviews

[Imara]

"that things between you and him will never be sort." The last word is a little awkward I'd suggest a change, however I can't think of a suggestion for the change haha.
"II realised what I'd done a little too late" You have a double I here.
Other than that amazing work. This brought tears to my eyes as I remembered every time I fought and still fight with my own mother. Why do we do that? I don't know. This was so beautiful, and so well worded. It will and has strike the hearts of whom ever reads it. I suggest you send this in to a paper for teenagers male and female can read this. Amazing Job. I really loved it, thank you for writing :)

[Charu Charms]

Thank you, Imara..

[Rachel Anderson]

This has a childlike feel to it in the beginning, and then progresses through your life. It's wonderfully written with lots of emotion. Congrats on placing in the contest. :)

[Charu Charms]

Thank you!

[Jupiter]

Oh, Charu, this is beautiful. I wonder though the meaning of adding the times she made you cry first. I almost found a feeling of justification at first that was short lived when you realized what you had done. The form and rhyme on this is near perfect. You did a wonderful job.

Jupiter

[Charu Charms]

Thank you, Jupiter. And by the way, there's certainly a point in what you said about adding the times mom made me cry first... but it was like, when I started writing, i had something totally different in my mind... but as the poem progressed, words just flowed out, and this is what I got. I didn't mean to justify my actions though. You can take it for the meaning that there were times when I had cried, because of her, for her, with her. But now, for the first time, I'd made a mistake, and I'd MADE her cry.. Thanks again.

[Just Kim]

Wow very heartfelt read as well as truthful.
Very well written and expressed.

[Charu Charms]

thanx!

[Just Kim]

N/P : )

[Brielle Cartny]

very passionate! I know people who go through things like this and it perfectly describes it! Well done!!

[Charu Charms]

thank u!

[Deuces]

Extremely profound, heartfelt and openly honest piece here. Extremely well written and perfectly conveyed. Very impressive and polished work... straight from the heart. Bravo.

[Charu Charms]

Thanx! :-)

[unsavable_soul]

This is epic, pure and unbridled. It choked me up. Levels of love and suffering, understanding and anger. BEAUTIFUL!
Magnifique!
I don't think pathos is the word to cover your raw talent nor should anything cover your talent...
Please give me more.
Chris

[Charu Charms]

Thanks a lot.. do read my other works if you get time. I'd love to improve with your help.

[~*~Peace Keeper~*~]

This is very touching..and it shows how easily words can hurt someone so deeply especially when they try their hardest. Hope it can be all worked out.

Good Job

[Charu Charms]

Thanks.. And yes, words can be destructive at times..

[~*~Peace Keeper~*~]

You're welcome