You Want to Want...

on addiction.

Standing on the edge of the precipice

It's shrouded in mist

Cloaked by absense of light

You never knew it was there

So how could you fight?

 

You take a tentative step, ever so slight

Only one, because despite the disguise

You can sense it. The danger. The lies.

 

Too late, one step is too many

And your toe hits the ledge

A stumble, a slip and you're over the edge

Fallen into a numbing trance

Plummeting ahead without a backwards glance.

 

You tell yourself you're sorry

But really you're not

Now that you've fallen

You forget what you've lost

 

Oh you want to go back, so you say

But do you?

Oh, really?

 

No, you want to WANT to go back.

You long to wish for the past

You try so hard to desire to stop

To crawl your way slowly back up to the top.

 

But you want none of those things

All you want is IT

So this this what they mean

When they say addiction never quits?

 

You never truly believed in such thirst

Mind over matter would protect you from hurt

Willpower could overcome the worst

 

But you weren't prepared

What good is willpower

When all your WILL has disappeared

And all your desire to return

has vanished into thin air?

 

You want to WANT to stop.

You wish that you wished you'd never dropped.

 

But you don't.

 

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Reviews

[Storygirl]

Penetrating. Dead on. Good work.

[Ferg]

This is outstanding writing! Very insightful. Good flow. Nice rhyming. Very well put together poem.

[Michelle Long]

This is quite amazing.
It had me locked in it from start to finish.
Wonderful piece!