Can't say GoodbyeA Poem by Chong N. KimA poem to my father who is currently suffering stomach cancer. I love you, daddy!
Can't say Goodbye
I think of the many things, we never got to say or how much you mean to me. Why has there been a wall between us? Why have I felt so far from you? Your days here are coming to an endless nightmare wondering just how much you'll make it. I want to lash out and fight for you, I want you to be here with me. I can't let you go,, because I need you here with me. I've lost so much in my past, I've made so many wrongs and there's not enough apologizies to make me feel at peace. What little memories I have is what runs through my mind. The very thought of losing you is driving me into an unknown fear. I never understood and under appreciated you for all that you've done, but this time I'll do better and make you proud. Please, don't go. Please don't leave me, behind. I'll never forget at 5 you taught me to tie my shoe, at 16, you warned me where to step. Now I'm old enough to know, but you still bow down to tie them again, as if I was 5 once before. When I see your frail hands, and your smile, all I want to do is capture the moment and never let it go. I know I've disappointed you, but if you stay I promise to make you proud. That is all I ever wish for you. When you said you didn't want to fight anymore, I wanted to respect your wishes but my heart is slowly dying inside. I can't imagine my world without your laughter, without your smile and without you at all. I just can't say, Goodbye. (c) Chong Kim, 2012 I love you, daddy! I love you very much! Thanksgiving 2012
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3 Reviews Added on November 23, 2012 Last Updated on November 23, 2012 AuthorChong N. KimDallas, TXAboutI Am: speaker writer artist ...singer performer mother activist abolitionist fighter and a survivor. I've done public speaking since 2003 and have appeared on local and national televi.. more..Writing
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