The Marks On My Skin

As i bleed i think about a day

Where i get push,shove, and hit on

the day worsen as i think about the punches and kickings

in the locker room.

The more i cut the more i feel alive

The more i feel human 

When i think of a day

where i walk down the halls hearing everyone calling names at me

The more i cut the more i feel pain

The more i feel joy

As i cut i see marks on both my arms

Full of red lines and the color of red everywhere

As i bleed i think about a day

Where i drop my books and everyone laughs

as clumsy as i am i pick up my books and fell once again

As i look at my skin i started to count

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,

I lost count and once more i counted again and again

As i bleed i think about the day

Where everyone tells me i'm useless 

I should die, I'm a waste of space

I look down on my skin and see 4 new marks bleeding

As i sit in the tub

I realize i've gotten weaker

I left a note where everyone can see

The cold water running

wetting my white dress

I raise the knife and slash my arms

As i sit there bleeding

I remember my days

Where i got push,shove, and hit on

In my last thought i think of the most important person

my mother

As i bleed i look at my skin 

Marks everywhere

Then darkness  

Author's Note

Don't worry this isn't me but i do have a message. Please stop bullying. People suffer and they might never experience the joy and the sadness of being a grown up. Send the message out or write it out.
Please stop bullying.
Thank you

Reviews

[1Disawsum]

Yes, bullying should be stopped. Knowing from first hand experience, it is a very painful journey that nobody should have to experience Yet, so many people around the world get bullied by jealous people. School should be a place where you feel safe and protected by rules and teachers with authority, yet in my school, no teacher has ever cared. Except for 3. You've described my thoughts when i was in my worst suicidal period. Cutting really helped, but was really dangerous. At the time though, I didn't care about the danger aspect of cutting. I thought of the joy and painful pleasure, and the numbness lifting over me. One of the only ways I expressed the pain I felt was through cutting... good poem. xx (I already wrote a few poems on self-harm and bullying and a few darker periods...the psychological impacts on bullying are endless)

[WolfyZara]

Thank you. I hope you fell better and no matter what don't listen to mean people. Be strong. You still have a life to fulfill. To tell you the truth i was at that state but i got through it and it made me stronger. Thank you for spreading the message. Life can be cruel but it could also be wonderful.

[1Disawsum]

thanks, now I've also gotten through it with the help of the 3 teachers! Yes, life can be cruel but once you get through it, it does make you stronger and more grateful for the smallest pleasures in life. There may be many more relapses and obstacles to overcome, but fi you run at them with full force, eventually you'll get out of it alive. And create memories!

[WolfyZara]

Exactly . Keep your head high no matter what.

[Silver]

That's an amazing mature writing , only very sensitive soul can understand what other girls feel when they cutting , I used to havea close friend that did it, it usually come from a very deep pain

[WolfyZara]

Thank you for your review

[MFrano1]

I love it! If this doesn't change the outlook of others on bullying and treating others like human beings then I don't know what will. By the way, I'm so glad you're not trying to send a message, you had me worried for a second :(

[WolfyZara]

Thank you so much

[lonewolf225]

.......I'm almost at a loss of words...... This poems is amazing... It made me feel a piece the emotional pain that a person who might be going through this might feel. Keep up the writing! Your poems continue to send well needed messages to people.

[WolfyZara]

Thank you so much. Please send or write the message. stop bullying