a message to a friend

7.4 billion people on this earth. 

I know about 100, maybe a little more.

Out of those people, I have 3.

You and maybe 2 others. 

You are the only ones that care.

That's it.

7.4 billion f*****g people and

nobody on this Earth besides

3 care. 

It's crazy.

3 people who know when somethings wrong. 

3 people who ask if I'm okay.

3 people I can talk to about my day or anything in general.

I love my 3 people. 

But 7.4 billion.

I know 100.

I have 3

Sometimes, 

I don't even have 3.

Sometimes it's 2 or mostly 1;

it depends on their mood.

Then it hits me:  why bother with the 8.9 billion?

You love your 3. 

But these numbers, these statistics,

they keep bouncing in my head like

the anxiety that's building up in my throat and

the depression that's building walls in my head 

and the 3 and the 100 and the 7.4.

3 100 7.4

7.4 billion, the number of people in this world 

and not one of them cares unless your dying or dead

but nobody knows what's going on in my head unless 

I tell them or they guess but it's funny,

really,

because it's 3.

3 people who care.

3 people who are there when your happy,

3 there when you're not.

3 by your side at the hospital

and 100 at the funeral wishing they were the 3

but then it's too late and there's no point.

Just like thinking you have 3 when you have 1.

Just like dwelling on 7.4 billion when you have 3 

you love.

Just like knowing nobody cares, 

and you only have yourself.

But now...

Now you have to find yourself,

and dig through the walls you've built to hold the bad in.

Dig through all the cages you locked.

Then, it opens again.

7.4 billion.

The number of people on this earth.

The number of times I cried today. 

The number of times I told myself I can do it.

The number of times I lied to myself.

Reviews

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

You’re lucky you have three some days I feel I have one or even less Lol
This poem runs deep through your heart and veins and it shows how alone we are in the world
We Enter this world alone go out alone

Just concentrate on those you know who care for you and be self sufficient in the knowledge that if they those people were not there then I’m sure there would be three more waiting in line To do that job I’m sure to care for you
Being alone can be scary but also helps us to realise there’s us and God and then there’s others
I’m a loner I love being alone in my own little world and find dealing with people almost a chore let alone a crowd!
Ps I especially loved your last verse

[sette]

sometimes one is all i ever need. because that one person knows you too well he/she doesn't need to ask if you are ok or not, he/she knows how you feel and how you need to be understood.

[wordman]

great advise and message,3 is all you need