Mistaken Perfection

I'm having a night of over thinking things. I wrote what I'm feeling.

Mistaken Perfection

The things I fear in life strike me down each day.

& I frown upon the days where I wish for it all to end.

I’ve longed for the easy way out, the way around the pain.

I continuously fight against my soul, my emotions,

& I wish I could hold myself up,

Though I know I’ll always crumble in your arms.

I know you’ll keep me on my feet,

You always give me your strength.

But I need this, to be able to stand on my own.

I can’t always rely on you.

You wont always be mine, even if you promise.

You’re miles away, off on your own,

A future so bright -- how can I compare?

You left, and promised this wouldn’t change,

So why am I still so scared, so afraid?

Why can’t I get my heart to trust?

I’m afraid of the future,

Expecting myself to screw this up.

I expect to lose you, fault of my own.

& I know you’ve told me that this isn’t in our future,

But how could anyone know?

You’re the picture of perfection,

In every aspect of love and life and everything and more.

I fail in comparison, this I know is true.

So how long will it be until you find someone greater?

This is what I fear.

I fear every ounce of the future,

Knowing I’m short on time.

Knowing I’m heading down, losing you.

Yes, this is what I fear:

Everything I know I can’t avoid.

Author's Note

What'd you think? More of a rant and spill of emotions than an organized poem, I must say. I guess I just needed to get it out.

Reviews

[The Cute 1]

I LIKE

[Vonnie15]

It may be more of a rant and spill of emotions, but it's still done in a arty way...only a writer can do that;-) I liked reading it. "I continuously fight against my soul"...I like this line a lot. Never stop writing your heart (If that makes any sense...hehe)

[Siddartha Beth Pierce]

Truly a wonderful expression of our fears and desires. It is a great talent that can share such raw truths. Thank you for sharing your heart and soul. Blessings to you. Have faith - I can tell you are stronger than you may initially realize in that you have the power to Love Unconditionally.
Light,
Siddartha

[Your Shooting Star.]

That was really well written. I can relate to it so much, and it shows most struggles of love gone chaotic.

[bluessadmood]

I ve longed for the easy way,around the pain,I fight against soul and emotions
Wish i could hold myself,I know i will always crumble into your arms
I know you will always keep me to my feet,you ve given me strength
and I need this to stand on my own,cant always rely on you
You wont be mine,you are miles away on your own
a future so bright how could I compare,
Picture of perfection,I fail to compare
Oh what loveliness ,how i loved this,i was shaken all over reading this
it must have come straight from the heart..and so I really loved it
lovely write..

[Meredith Leigh]

I thoguht this was great. it was so raw and emotional. A rant or not, it had that pretty poetic feel to it that I love in writing, and the fact that it was so heartfelt made it even better.
Great job!

- Kriss

[Silvario]

An excellent display of classic poetry. writing from the heart. beautifuly written with a smooth easy flow. I really enjoyed this. well done. :)

[Greg Skura]

No Expectation No Disappointment!!! Many things in life we have little or no control over, have faith and know the universe is unfolding as it should! Thank You for sharing!

[Shelly Araujo]

Out of the head and onto the page; good way to deal with these emotions. I have had these same fears and insecurities in my life but seeing them all together in your poem helps me to realize that I don't want them to have the power in my life. Excellent "rant" :-)