I'm cutting myself!

self.rebel.life.

I'm cutting myself
In pieces so small
To fill up the little space
I'm given.
To get fixed in the part of life
I am too big to it,
It's choking
Smothering myself to death.
Cannot resist this pressure
I'm cracking
My veins are bursting
There's too much pressure
Inside.
I'm cutting myself to the edges
I'm cutting to the core
Just to breathe out
Just to get in
But it's still NOT OK.
Something's still so hard
So hard to hit,
And it is hurting me.

Reviews

[jen -- JG]

Hi Rupam, take it steady and breathe. If this is real and how you feel then what you are telling about won't help.
That said - your poem.

Stark, hard hitting and to the point - a depression that is not only overwhelming but also destructive.
Your poem also shows an awarness that cutting is not right but whatever is hurting you is unbearably big
Your wording is precise and the feeling of despair and darkness is intense.

A well written poem stating facts and hitting home on many levels.

Thank you for sharing this.

Jen-JG

[KayOss]

Wow. Destructive depression. Pain so intense that one is at a loss and doesn't know how to deal with it- how to cope. Trust me, I know all about this. I think many artists do and what brings us here is that we are, in one form or another, artists. If you are feeling like this really, then talking about it is a good idea. I wouldn't hold something like this in if I were you. It does no good. Reach out. Talk to someone. Express what you're feeling in some form, like poetry perhaps. Pain inspires art. It seems like it's inspired you.

[Chloe..Across the Unive..]

Reading this I feel a hurting too .. the person you write about seems so sad.. cutting is something i know a bit about .. this is well written .. deeply emotional ..

Chloe
xoxo