Cold Steel Doors

As the cold steel doors close

Automatically locking behind me

I stare down a gray bleak hallway

through a small window on the door

I enter into the depths of a living hell

kicking and screaming

I find myself in a padded cell

My manic thoughts are racing

full speed ahead

The nurses rush in

with a needle to subdue me

I fight with all that is left in me

A stinging prick I feel in my arm

The tranquilizer takes effect immediately

I try to get up

I stagger and fall

into an unwelcomed slumber

Depression succumbs me

I feel so violated

as I awaken in this eerie place

Soon they come for me

Unlock the door

Show me to my assigned room

It's cold and gray like the hallways

Not even a picture upon the walls

Just a bed with bleached white sheets

And a solemn chair near an encaged window

To my dismay

The view is the hospital parking lot

I wonder how long I'll be here this time

singing the pyche ward blues

 

 

 

Reviews

[QuietPoet]

Wow. This was so sad. I felt the emotion and saddness in this. I would love to know more about this, Deb. Thanks for entering my contest.

[Calypso]

This shows your fear and hopelessness. I think there should be better care of people in mental hospitals.

[Michael X]

Deb, this is powerfully written and expressed with clarity and emotion that
grab hold of the readers thoughts, the meaning has a way of creating an emotional
impression that swept me away with intensity, wow, riveting in detail.

through a small window on the door
I enter into the depths of a living hell
kicking and screaming
I find myself in a padded cell

[Color Me Gone]

Oh damn. I know this poem intimately. I didnt write it, and I have never read it before but I know depression through Panic Disorder. My friend, this was a strong write, filled with the confusions that only one suffering from these diseases can possibly know.

xoxo

[Jerri]

So bleak....well written.

[Valentine]

I have never had to face this being locked up by authorities or because of illness,,just in a closet bleeding when I almost lost my life from spouse abuse..Time passesa nd with God recovery is possible trusr Him..lol..God bless..valentine

[Yvonne Heidt]

Debileah, this is heartbreaking. Excellently written, but simply heartbreaking.

[Wildfleour]

A true glimpse into a moment of dark despair.