My angel

A memoir of my brother's passing.

My mother sat me down 
And asked if I needed water 
The words she would speak to me 
Would shatter me in an instant 
Words which echoed in my ears 
Somberly she said, "You're brother died" 
My only sibling just like that 
I screamed aloud, then softly cried 

Forced to resign my job 
In order to spend some grieving time 
My younger brother was cremated 
He used to be taller than me 
Now in a box weighing less than eight pounds 
I could not get over this, never 
My faith shaken to the core 
My sister status revoked forever 

We often used to fight 
About absolutely nothing 
And jealousy set in 
When striving for mom's attention 
But I never ever thought 
That I would lose the chance to express 
How much I loved my brother 
And it causes me distress 

Time passes by at it's steady pace 
Yet his face appears in my mind's eye 
When I tell a joke I know he'd like 
And he'd laugh as if I were the best 
I savor the sound of his laughter 
For this I know all too well 
My brother never left me 
He is my guardian angel