A Chapter by Debbie Barry

poem about being jealous of a girl, although the guy isn't mine. Messed up. My first marriage was in crisis.




August 10, 1988

I wish I was stronger.
I mean,
I want to be strong.
The trouble is,
I have forgotten how.
I have spent too many months
Being weak,
That now I must fight
To be strong.
I am not sure, really,
How I came to love him.
I have a good marriage.
I have a nice house.
How could I love him,
When I barely knew him?
He has been teaching me.
One lesson I am studying
Is how to be strong.
It is a mental strength,
Not physical.
It is the strength
I need.
He has a girlfriend now,
And he is happy.
She and I are friends.
That is why I need strength.
I must not be jealous
Of my friend.
If I love him,
I will find the strength.
I know it is in me.
I just have to find it.
He is very important to me.
I do not want to spoil
His relationship.
To show him I love him,
I must give him up,
With neither jealousy,
Nor ill feelings.
I must find the strength
To give him to her.

© 2017 Debbie Barry

Author's Note

Debbie Barry
I wrote this when I was 19. Please judge the writing, not the situation. Initial reactions appreciated.

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Added on November 8, 2017
Last Updated on November 9, 2017
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My Youngish Adult Poetry


Debbie Barry
Debbie Barry

Clarkston, MI

I live with my husband in southeastern Michigan with our two cats, Mister and Goblin. We enjoy exploring history through French and Indian War re-enactment and through medieval re-enactment in the So.. more..