Sixteen Years

Sometimes, you reach that point where suicide seems like the best option.

Sixteen Years

 

I’m tired of all of this.

I wish I could be on my own.

Every time I turn around,

Something is going wrong.

 

I stay to myself

And out of everyone’s way.

So why can’t they just let me be?

 

Sixteen years

I haven’t part my lips.

 

Sixteen years

I’ve been treated wrong

 

Sixteen years

Was fifteen too long.

 

Standing on top of a rooftop,

Looking down at all of the people.

Should I jump,

Or keep my life.

I reminisce on my life,

All the years he touched me,

How God gave me a best friend

And then took her away.

 

How he broke my heart,

How I was stupid in love.
How my sister walked into my life,

Turned gay,

And dashed out.

 

I think and decide

“What’s the point?”

 

The wind in my face,

My eyes stinging  of tears,

The pressure of gravity

Heavily pushing on my back.

 

My shoes fall off

And so does my jacket.

As I’m in the air,

I re-thnk my decision.

 

I start to fall faster

As I quickly try

To grab a hold of something

So I can stop my fall.

Too late.

S P L A T !

 

As I hit the ground,

I see my body lying there,

Lifeless.

I watch my family rush to me,

Crying and asking God “why?”

I see him look at me and break down,

Wishing he could have stopped me.

 

I wish I hadn’t done it,

I wish I was there in his arms.

I lightly start crying,

Wishing I could go back in time.

“Everyone deserves a second chance”,

A faint voice whispers to me.

 

I start to fall back in place with my body.

I stop crying as my body instantaneously inflates with life.

“Thank you”

I gratefully whisper to God.

“This time I won’t screw up.”

 

He kisses my tears away with love gratefulness

When he sees I’m alive.

And he whispers into my ear

“Next time, I’m going with you.”

Reviews

[Marshal Gebbie]

Nuts to that Chipmonk... You are hardly out of the egg.
There is a heap of really good stuff waiting just around the corner for you.
Stick around kid!

[Miss Marie Riorden.]

Well, I enjoyed the read (even though I, just saying, am not religious) It does speak to teenagers who are having so much trouble in their lives.
v I bet many teenagers think this after they pull the trigger, cut themselves, jump. or anything else. Great write (:
'I wish I hadn't done it,'

[Danielle Landry]

Thank you :)