taking back

i was always told to stay away from you

to hate you for what you did to me

for years i lived with not knowing if you 

were dead or alive

the thought of you always angered me 

the memories embedded in my brain

all the pain and suffering clawing at me

struggling to hold it in, afraid of what would happen

if it escaped

as i got older i learned to control it

to hold it in from the world

but i found out quickly 

what was happening

i needed help

i needed closure 

13 years later i got my answer

i kept my feelings inside as i walked through

that door, seeing you made me want to die

but through it all i manage to stay strong

you could hear in my voice

the desperate plea for understanding

of what you did

3 years have gone by and your more then 

i ever wanted

you are my mother once again

im sorry for my anger against you

there are still unanswered questions and 

feeling against you but

the sorrow, anger and judging are left with the lies 

that were brought upon you.

they were wrong

they were selfish

they hated you so 

but i once did also