"I Still Love Your Taste"

I disappear and indulge
These words just consume me
This life is too hard
And I'm not who I thought I'd be

I'm a joke, all alone, in the shadow that's you
I replay and relive all the lies that you spewed
But they're hollow, like me,
And they lose all the grit
You're out there thriving while I'm feeling like s**t

How's it fair that you make all my past words sound wrong
Make me doubt the decision I toggled so long
I'm ok, but I'm not, because I'm just not that strong

I'm weak and I'm lonely and I keep losing sleep
Or I just sleep too long to continue a dream
Because dreams keep the promises I know you can't give
It's easy without you, but harder to live

So I'll pray every night I don't wake the next day
My hate and my love for you's measured the same
It's loathsome and bitter
And leaves sour hearts
I wish that you cared that you ripped me apart

Reviews

[jzadski]

This is a very lovely piece, and I can really connect with all of the words. I think you did a beautiful job writing it as well. Great work x

[what-the-frick]

Thank you so much! I'm glad you liked it