poem to be read at the very end of next year.

poem to be read at the very end of next year.

A Poem by h d e rushin




Next time I enter a relationship
I promise to stop needing stuff. Each armful,
each breath
every kiss -
all will be made erasable. Each
poem
every epos. Each slipper.
Every hand held.
Every hourly bathroom visit.
Each t**d.
Every outfit; all the ultraviolet.

I have to stop wanting things; judging things
since i'm a little fucked up myself.
Every rock farm will not
be a perfect cliff. Every turtle named
not the third part of a Triadic Greek ode.
Stop penning things
to the shadows of the past.
Stop thinking that everything
bad thing that will happen
will be my fault. 

Stop completing the sentences of the dead.
Stop planting in the soil where the ficus has grown
too large for the pot, anything that needs more time to
process. 
I have to start agreeing with the saints. I have to
start eating more honey and locus like
John the Baptist. 
Put more whole grains in my diet.
more flax seeds.
More turnips.
fewer spiders 
when i sleep.

I promise to stop pointing at 
outside influences. Like Degas
I need more ballet dancers in my dreams.
More arabesque's.
More brise',s.
I promise to be more merciful. 
more gullible.
(aren't they the same)
more willing..
more sexual. Primrose swatches
will be, henceforth, the strings
that open my new horizons.

so spare me the wedding talk 
the guilt of growing-older-and-living-alone
bullshit. 
I got this all worked out.
I promise.


© 2016 h d e rushin



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Sadly, we get from life and relationships, exactly, what we put into them, be that a little or a lot ... The sadder fact is that what we get is usually what we gave to ourselves, for we can never count on others to provide for our needs, physical, mental, or emotional ... If we do, we are doomed to a life of failure that shall end in our end ... Some guy smarter than I will ever be said, "To thine ownself, be true," wise words that I struggle to learn to apply to my own life ... I see some of that wisdom in your heart penned to page ... Never lose this poem, for one day you may need it as a refresher course when that next dose of user-idus comes along to feign love, romance, and life together forever ... Nice poem with a powerful message ...

Marvin Thomas Cox-Flynn

Posted 1 Year Ago


h d e rushin

1 Year Ago

what wonderful words to wake up to Marvin Thomas.And I agree. we can never count on other humans to .. read more
As a new year's resolution, this would cause me to fail within a week. :))

The wealth of knowledge and understanding that only experience can bring, shines like a beacon in this wonderful poem.

Beccy.

Posted 1 Year Ago


h d e rushin

1 Year Ago

thank you my dearest Beccy...I had been fighting my usual, winter time chest infection....feeling be.. read more
" Ditto" I know, you hate it when I do that...you want it all spelled out in needlepoint on our sleeves, In this one Degas, is the form in which clay spins slippery and wet through our muddy fingers...although you shall never die, your ghost will haunt us while listing all the perfect reasons to never choke upon the word.

Posted 1 Year Ago


h d e rushin

1 Year Ago

beloved: you are wise beyond your days and months. Happy new year to you poetess/ dana
Corset

1 Year Ago

Happy New Year ;)
You have got to hand it to you dear friend. You live! And what is more ... you understand. Note only the three stops there. Never trust anyone who uses more than three stops. they don't know what they are talking about.
To say that I empathise is not enough. Because although I do; I am still amazed at your skill. Don't say talent because I don't believe in it. Don't say gift because you should take full responsibility for such genius. The very fact you can write such as this is because you have lived it, (and perhaps your experience says you should change it. Although that is a moot point). I'm wary about speaking too much about subject here and not enough about format. But that you can format and shape a poem like this is a given and I am truly amazed at the skill you've shown in telling these personal stories. If I was wearing a hat, I'd take it off. Amazing I tell you. And I too apologise for reading it too soon.

Posted 1 Year Ago


h d e rushin

1 Year Ago

thank you dear Ken..I am reminded of Sexton and how she was chided for being un-schooled, yet she ha.. read more
i wonder..."gullible and merciful" the same?

i have debated that quite often..

i guess i am with guilt...i am living alone....and being quite okay with it...
i was in relationships, enough of them that i do feel the need, no longer...

my dancers dance to funk in my dreams...

oh and sorry, dana, i couldn't wait till the end of next year to read this!

j.

Posted 1 Year Ago


h d e rushin

1 Year Ago

"my dancers dance to the funk in my dreams" ..
damn jacob. What a line.

Happy .. read more
A girl friend (not girl-friend) once asked me why she wasn't getting hit on much and then she asked me if I knew how to show her how to 'behave like a maiden in despair' because she figured that was what guys wanted these days.
I don't think there is such a thing as the 'perfect match' - a partner who completes us. Instead there may be a gazillion people who fit a little, or a lot, while other's can be shoehorned like squares into round holes but never 100%.
I guess to want to find someone who if things don't work out, will be entirely wipe-able from all spheres of our lives would be ideal.
I like this Hde Rushin.
I'll give you a bell December 31st 2017 - see how things worked out.

Posted 1 Year Ago


h d e rushin

1 Year Ago

i have a cousin who only only wants you to date those people with compatible zodiac signs. So if you.. read more
Tony Jordan

1 Year Ago

Wow - it's takes all sorts eh Dana.
I come from a very ghetto-ised (mentality) community. Man.. read more

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