Dangerous Erotic Memories

As I lie here thinking of years now gone by
I still have that ache deep inside and I cry
I can't bring the past back and re-live each day
But my dreams keep you close to my soul, anyway

 

My body is much older and falling apart
But your memory is still alive in my heart
Your eyes still enchant me and lips did caress
The part of my life that I cherished the best

 

The last time I saw you, you still looked the same
Your voice hadn't changed, your mind was still sane
You still had that aura that held me at bay
I still have that feeling for you in that way

 

I can't keep it hidden no longer, I'll burst
I know I will live with regret, and it hurts
I hope you still hold in your heart, love I gave
Your memory in tact, each letter on save

 

Don't hold it against me, I loved you so much
Eagerly waiting at night for your touch
Tearing all walls down'tween age and the law
Still keeping silent, from winter to fall

 

Year after year, holding back tears
Thinking of you and all of my fears
of getting caught in the act by others we knew
wondering what they'd think , wondering what they'd do

 

Forgive me, my love; it was just fate
That God let you birth just a little too late
And bring you to me in a time, when I would
Be just a woman in prime motherhood

 

Watching and yearning for you in my arms
And dreaming back then, of all of your charms
I was too forward, and we didn't wait
Now I am still suffering, because it's too late

 

Although I am old, I know I did sin
But if I could, I would do it again
I pray that your life will keep you still young
like you were at nineteen and I, forty-one

 

Last night a friend called me, waking my sleep

Said she had bad news that might make me weep

A man I once knew that she thought a close friend

Will never come over to visit again

Four months of cancer, he secretly lay

'Til the Angel of Death came and took him away.

 

Author's Note

nonfiction

Reviews

[Blackbirdsong]

This is lovely and heartbreaking at the same time Janyce. You told me about this relationship before and you give tribute to your feelings and the fact that time doesn't diminish them.