All Over Again

I thought I had escaped

But maybe that isn’t the right word

I guess I just thought

That I had landed

I had jumped from a cliff

Not knowing where I was falling

And on the way down

I held your hand

But by the time we reached the bottom

You were gone

We fell into love

Even faster than we fell out of it

And I walked away

Bruised

But I healed

All over again

But I found you eventually

Or rather, you found me

And I fell for you

All over again

And with a few words

I’ve managed to throw myself off

All over again

And this time

I’m reaching for your hand

But only our fingers

Are touching

And it feels so wrong

But for some reason

I want it to feel so right

Even our conversations

Are back to normal

With your spaced out texts

And lack of expression

But somehow I know

That it’s not me

At least I hope it isn’t

Because when you text me first

My heart flutters

It feels like that very first date

All over again

Because when you reach for my hand

And pull me in close

It feels just like that very first kiss

All over again

And when you tell me you miss me

It feels like that very last phone call

All over again

But somewhere

In the back of my mind

I know

That I could screw it up

All over again