The Impact of Betrayal

I guess I've just had some realizations lately, and before I knew it I was writing. I figured I'd finish and post it at the least

 I don't believe what they say is true

Not about you, definitely not about you

But when they so much and know so much

Whose story am I supposed to trust

 

My closest friends who've never let me down

Or a random stranger who's come around

 

But they don't see what I see

This person behind the vague mask

And they can't perceive what I do

But is that too much a favor to ask?

 

What are you really, now that I know

Didn't you trust me enough to tell me?

The truth is brutal, the truth is violent

Didn't you like me enough to tell me?

 

Was I different? Was I special?

Did  I give you a reason to lie?

Was I nothing? Or just a fling?

Another rule for you to defy?

 

I can't stand not knowing what's inside your head

When you've let me into your unspoken past

Of lies, perhaps, but truth lies somewhere

That's something for which I never knew I must ask

 

But that’s my foolish nature to go this far

And I know I'm a fool to care this way

When you've hardly trekked the path of my heart

Yet I'm breathless and can't find any words to say

 

What are we? Where are we?

What is this thing I feel?

It's rather hard to understand

Whether all this is real

 

Can you give me a solid answer?

Or will you only stand there tacit?

Do you expect me to pursue you

On an unknown course from your past?

 

Can't you see we're at standstill fork in the road?

And look both sides: there's no where else to go

We can't move backward, and certainly not forward

This fight or flight, you know?

 

And finally you've confessed to me

What I sought after all this time

Your unknown, secret Identity

 And I realize now, you can't be mine

 

You're the same as every other jerk

Whose shattered my heart like broken glass

But this time I know how the fairytale ends

And I won't let you reenact MY past

 

Were you ever special? Were you ever different?

Did  I trust you enough to tell you?

I've got my own set of scars, I'll have you know

And you've just added to them too

 

I would let you get away this time

Like I've done to the all the ones before

But I know you'll never realize

How much you hurt me to the core

 

So I'll never forgive your "difficult past"

And I'll never forget your "minor untruths"

Because in the end, I know despite my sadness

That was all that really defined you

 

But I can't hurt you the way you hurt me

Because I have too much a conscience to let me do so

I hate that you'll get away, and write the same story

And yet I'll still let you go

 

Don't lie and say we had something

You're only making it harder for yourself

Because I'm long gone, you'll never know in which direction

And you're going straight to the pits of hell

 

I've heard it all, I know it all

And there's nothing let for you to say

So why makes fictions and fantasies

When I've already a different way

 

And the funniest thing is, there was nothing to begin with

If you'd like to know, I expected nothing

And I know I was vulnerable when I met you

But I'll never  go back to suffering

Author's Note

It's not good, but I guess it's just what I felt spilling out.

Reviews

[Alexander Z. Anthony]

And that, is how one truly expressed feeling. This is a good example of emotion put into words.
Kudos.
-Azza

[Liverpoolfan]

*sighs*
Define your version of good. Please. I'd be very interested to know it. But... I suppose... your right. It's not good. It's great.
So this is your poem with emotion then? Welll, that's suprising because it doesn't seem to have any emotion watsoever.
I'm only kidding, of course it has emotion! In fact, this is what makes this poem great. The emotion behind it. Everyone can relate to this poem. It's beautiful, and extremely well written. The structure remains, even though there is emotion behind the words. This is a testiment to your writing abilty. Well done.

[Deepshikha]

I feel like you're talking to me, Booger... o_0

[Pitta S Dev]

i feel it is a natural expression of feelings..not made up / or imagined.

It is rightful to say that feelings expressed are as true as the truth itself.The line that captured me "The truth is brutal, the truth is violent"
Congrats....

[Sands]

if people could really understand that the truth will make life easier than any lie they can ever fathem....

[Domo]

This is great, no reason to criticize it. I loved this poem, and I love your writing. Keep up the good work.

[JcBrown]

this is basically what i am going through right now.. I love it

[Donovan "Grey Wolf" Go..]

wow u look down on ur writing and u shouldn't u say what ur feeling and it is awsome but with this great writing came alot of pain and tears I can tell by readin this. its really good.

[J.A.Thompson]

i completely disagree with your note, this poem is great. This is one for the library. *click*

[Sseoni]

Wow! What a wonderful poem! I really liked it! It was full of so much emotion! It was absolutely amazing! Betrayal... it's a sad thing to experience... but awesome poem! :D