Losing You

Then
I scream at night and cry knowing I have a drunk father and messed up life, but your smile and love makes me sleep blissfully.  Knowing you love me is what makes me smile still.  Life is okay knowing I have you forever and always.

Now

I scream till my lungs no longer have the oxygen to, knowing you have left me here with a drunk father and broken heart now too.  Your smile haunts me and nightmares are current.  Now you don't love me and there is no longer that smile upon my face.  My blue eyes fill with sorrow as I realize now I'm alone and life is a waste.

Author's Note

this is a very personal short writing I made. Please don't judge me and give honest opinions of it.