inexorable dependability

Oh faithful companion that you are,

For you my life I did discard.

Expunge times of melancholy from my soul,

One hit and I’m sucked into your governing control.

You’re my only and every thought,

Even through time my craving is only begot.

The absence of you makes my body sick,

But I need you despite the damage you inflict.

You numbly dissipate my harsh reality,

But in return demand the costly price of fatality.

Although I love you with deep desire,

I hate the dependability that transpired.

I am deaf to the pleadings of my friends and family,

Too oblivious that you made me someone else mentally.

When I finally run from your life sucking ways,

It will be too late for me to betray.

So, desperate now I beseech,

 Allow me to at last, break from way from my leech.

Author's Note

i will be editing/revising sometime shortly, let me know your thoughts

Reviews

[Leaner Pastures]

"Expunge times of melancholy from my soul,

One hit and I’m sucked into your governing control."

Really stood out for me. You took on a very difficult subject with honesty and style. Really brought out the internal debate and justifications that people facing dependency issue go through. For a piece you "wrote in two minutes", you captured a dark picture very well.