motions in an apathetic circle

motions in an apathetic circle

A Poem by jacob erin-cilberto


motions in an apathetic circle



i want to be intellectual,
but simple

i want to write deeply metaphorical poetry
yet easily imagined and related to

i want to be sophisticated in my manner
yet approachable

i want to write tragedy
in comic tones

i want to be me,
yet Gary Cooper, Lawrence Ferlinghetti and Bogart
smoking a cigarette on a dark corner of life

i want to love you till the end of time,
but be by myself more often than not

i want to write you engaging poetry
without caring if it is accepted or rejected

i want to be immune
yet feel every ache, cut, scar
that bleeds existence into a poet

i want to be you
not me,
never me

i want to live outside myself
in the safety of my own mind

i want you to understand
all that i don't
and hold that in highest regard

without regards to what i write
after all
it's all just a bluff

and i am holding a dead hand
even as the fingers still touch
the breathing keys.


erin-cilberto
6/7/17

© 2017 jacob erin-cilberto



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I have seen you on that dark corner puffing about will you light one for me I seem to know what puffing is all about.

Regards,
Al

Posted 4 Months Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

4 Months Ago

i will light one for you, Al...
thanks

j.
I can see you like Bogart, smoking a cigarette on a dark corner of life. Yep, that's you, teach!


Posted 4 Months Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

4 Months Ago

yes, love Bogart and all those old actors and films....that film noir style just floats my boat...lo.. read more
Kelly Scheppers

4 Months Ago

I'm a HUGE fan of TCM. The other night, I saw Robert Mitchum's son, Chris, talking about the movie .. read more
jacob erin-cilberto

4 Months Ago

Yes, please do...i love that old stuff.
hmmm, bluffing eh, well in that case let me raise you 5 metaphors and a heartbreak poem... but you know Jacob I think you pulled that inside straight and have collected every one of them desires... after all you went home shirtless right??!! because I think a poet usually loses their hearts in each poem they write... and you Jacob are a poet!!!

redzone

Posted 4 Months Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

4 Months Ago

love your sense of humor...thanks for your words, Curt.
j.
mmmm, I live here every dream time and die here everyday....if only.....

Posted 4 Months Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

4 Months Ago

thank you, Queenie...yes, if only....
j.
A very worthy expression of a most noble aspiration, an aspiration that makes a poet, a poet ...

Posted 4 Months Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

4 Months Ago

thank you for your words, Marv.
j.
Life does seem like a circle of certain needs and wants we set our mind to, even surround ourselves with them... I feel it is a bluff when we say we want to feel everything and yet be immune to everything...
A sigh provoking write.

Posted 4 Months Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

4 Months Ago

thank you for your kind review, Yumna..

j.
Dr. YumnaKay

4 Months Ago

You're welcome, Jacob. A pleasure always :)
i kind of got stuck on the title ...feels so lackadaisically languid ... i am such a lazy lout ;}
i thoroughly enjoyed your poem ..love the honest admitions and aspirations ..surely they mark us all ...have to say these lines:
"i want to love you till the end of time,
but be by myself more often than not" made me chuckle as well ...if only "they" understood that being alone does not mean "...don't love me" such a hardy good read for me this morning jacob!
E.

Posted 4 Months Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

4 Months Ago

thank you for your kind review, E.
j.
' I want to live outside myself ~ in the safety of my own mind.. '

Oh my goodness, so many plausible 'i want to ... ' desires, leading to a sadness of time's passing, one's needs are past fulfillment.

But, perhaps. that is how and what you are, jacob, a little of this, a little of that and, in total, a human being with a great many facets, edges, faces - call it what you like. Surely, there's no sorrow in that?

Posted 4 Months Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

4 Months Ago

thank you for your very kind words, emma.
j.
emmajoy

4 Months Ago

Always hope to touch your words with close understanding or as near as ..
How else to look at our own work? Doubts cause self-ridicule. Learning to distance from a familiar write takes practice, and a touch of pain.

Posted 4 Months Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

4 Months Ago

you are so right, Jon...thank you.
j.
Wow Jacob! This has an incredible tone that alters as it progresses. It begins with a slow and reasoned expression that develops into bright artistic desire but ends in the tragedy of aging and losing faith in life and love. So full of pathos.

Posted 4 Months Ago



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jacob erin-cilberto

Carbondale, IL



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Originally from Bronx, NY, I live in Carbondale, Illinois...teach English at two community colleges and have been writing and publishing poetry since 1970. Friending works two ways. If we have had .. more..

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