Inner Demons

Inner Demons

A Story by Snow Angel

I always feel restless, irritable, and can't enjoy anything but coffee and a cigarette. It pains me that the only thing that puts me at peace is toxic. I have no idea how it happened but I've become nothing but toxic. I do my best to get by but it doesn't seem to be even a bit good enough to get me anywhere new. I am unemployed. I made a bad decision and now I have nothing. I have no support system. I have a few people that will tell me to keep my head up but I can't see to hold my head above water. I am medicated but it's not working well enough as it should be. I've been going to therapy. I've been going to the gym but I've become lazy. I have no idea how to go on like this but I need to. I need to fight these inner demons because they are eating my soul alive. 

© 2017 Snow Angel



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To me, the best thing about good writing is honesty. Here, your self-honesty way surpasses most writers, which makes your message very strong & relatable. The reader is feeling compelled to do or say something to help . . . and then relieved when the ending note is a hopeful one. I've been thru a recent tough stretch where I had to learn to walk again & there was nobody around to help me keep my determination going. I was never honest enuf to share with anyone how hard that was. It's so true the way you discuss the various substances we all lean on, everything from drugs to religion, & it's so true-to-life that it's somehow not OK to lean on something unhealthy, even tho many bible-thumpers can have an unhealthy effect on their relationships, but they are always "in the right" . . . whereas relying on coffee and a cig always carried some unspoken judgment. Good way to paint an honest scenario that could be plucked from many people's lives these days, as the difficulties are part of so many people's lives now. I hope your situation is not as you describe here . . . and if it is, I hope for your continued strength to pull out of it! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

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Its amazing that you can reveal your life's struggle like this. I like how your letting your emotions run out because as people we tend to conceal things. Sometimes we place pressure on ourselves to do what society expects, even though its not in our heart. I know your walking through a toxic pool, but all it takes is one person's clear hand to pull you through. I don't know you personally, but that doesn't mean I can't encourage you. Remember this, "life is always worth living because your place in this world is greater than you realize." From one writer to another, "keep writing to heal and at the end you'll find solace that is real." Take care.

Posted 4 Days Ago


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i hate it that your life is upside down,i go through this stuff often,time to talk to god...

Posted 1 Week Ago


I can't say what will make you happy, or what it will take to find peace of mind, but I can offer a starting point. When we focus on the past and how it has affected the life we live today, we lose control and progressively fall apart. When we focus on changing the future, we regain control and change the way we feel about today. Life is what we make it.
Stay strong...

Posted 1 Week Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

To me, the best thing about good writing is honesty. Here, your self-honesty way surpasses most writers, which makes your message very strong & relatable. The reader is feeling compelled to do or say something to help . . . and then relieved when the ending note is a hopeful one. I've been thru a recent tough stretch where I had to learn to walk again & there was nobody around to help me keep my determination going. I was never honest enuf to share with anyone how hard that was. It's so true the way you discuss the various substances we all lean on, everything from drugs to religion, & it's so true-to-life that it's somehow not OK to lean on something unhealthy, even tho many bible-thumpers can have an unhealthy effect on their relationships, but they are always "in the right" . . . whereas relying on coffee and a cig always carried some unspoken judgment. Good way to paint an honest scenario that could be plucked from many people's lives these days, as the difficulties are part of so many people's lives now. I hope your situation is not as you describe here . . . and if it is, I hope for your continued strength to pull out of it! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 1 Week Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

Strength is what keeps us alive isn't it? It is good to fight with our emotions sometimes because that is what one can do when there is no hope to sustain them. I really liked the transformation in this poem.

Posted 1 Week Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.


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Added on December 3, 2017
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Snow Angel
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Toms River, NJ



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